Today's the 1st term test. and it was awful.. LOL!! well if i can pass.!! i really will thks and praise god like mad XD haha. well quite a day for me, went wif sebastian to the regional libary, he found his porsche book, i found a book on sugar gliders!! so cute, but not my topic haha. found a giant Fish book which i would call a tome of fish knowledge LOL!!! i dunno how thick it was, it is very certainly heavy like hell!!!. haha. and yea.. went bak home, started to take out all the sand from the fish tank which broke.. and replaced it wif a new tank wif my father's help haha. then went to study for WDS...which is i dunno how to study. haha. Well then talked on msn for awhile...become sadded for like 10mins. lucky ricky showed me the manga which made me smile =D haha. Crazy German Suplex LOL!!! Anw, when u chose to say tat we're frens, i was torn apart. not to say something stupid. but it jux doesn't feel rite. i feel like i've been an idiot for so long. Man i dun wanna use the word 'idiot'. but i cant find any other word so yea.. and.. Remember the time i say, i told u, i will wait. tats wat i am doin and wat i'll do. Cause i haven forgotten our promises. i may haf bad memory. but these things are so important to me that i can never forget. Damn It. With these feelins and thoughts i have now, i can already create a song instantly, my own song. A music out of my mind. A lyrics out of my feelings. Its all true. I've chose my words carefully. everytime i speak, everytime i talk to u, i choose my words wisely. Carefully typing and thinkin and saying, nv to say something tat'll hurt u. ppl dun ask any questions bout this cause i will not answer. thks!

Song By Yui
Namidairo

kirawarete iro you na ki ga shite ta kaerimichi
miageta heya no akari ima donna kimochi de iro no darou

kenka ni nareba sugu ayamaru yowakute anata wa zurui hito

namidairo koe ga kikoenai yoru wa
komarasete shimau hodo wagamama ni naritai

daijoubu sou itte mita kedo
sonna hazu nai deshou...

mizutamari ni utsuru kanashii kao minarete iru
muri iwanai tsumori wakatteru kara kurushiku naru no

yasashiku sareru to nakete kuru yappari anata wa zurui hito

namidairo koe ga kikoenai yoru wa
komarasete shimau hodo wagamama ni naritai

daijoubu sou itte mita kedo
sonna hazu nai desho...

anata no mae ja usotsuki o
kizuite hoshii to omotteru no
sonna ni tsuyoi wake janai kara ne atashi

namida kobosanai kimete ita noni
komarasete shimau yo ne wagamama ni narenai

daijoubu nante mata kiku kedo
sonna hazu nai desho…


English Translation

Getting a feeling that I'm being disliked.. on the way home
Looking up at the brightness of the room
I wonder what kind of feelings I'm experiencing now

When we get into a fight I apologise immediately
I'm weak, and you are such a sly person

During nights when my tear-stained voice cannot be heard
I want to become wilful even if it means being a nuisance
Tried to say I'm alright but
That's not possible isn't it

I’m accustomed to seeing my sorrowful face reflected in the puddle
Because I'm fully aware of my intention not to say that I give up/in… I become hurt

Whenever I'm treated gently by you I will feel like crying, you’re really such a sly person afterall

During nights when my tear-stained voice cannot be heard
I want to become wilful even if it means being a nuisance
Tried to say I'm alright but
That's not possible isn't it

In front of you I’m such a liar you know
Kept thinking “I hope that you would realise this”
Because I’m not in the least that strong at all

Despite already deciding not to allow my tears to fall
I'm troubling you ain't I? I just can’t be wilful

Once again I asked myself if I was alright but
That’s not possible isn’t it