Exams Exams Exams! HOLD ON KIBA!~ Only Till Next Mon! haha! ok I SHALL DO IT ^^! well, i've got inspired by NODAME CANTABILE to play better music and songs! haha. And its so touchin too~ awww.. CHIAKI!!!! so shuai! and cool! and talented! Nodame! so wierd, so cute and funny! damn talented too! haha. well. i really enjoyed this drama..

really made me look at how music is really made.. the feel~ the way~ im inspired to make music! haha. maybe im gonna try creating a piece durin the holidays haha. also.. love in this drama.. aww so nice hehe. although in a funny way.. haha. i love it! XD Its sweet, and cool =D..

Love in this drama is warmth and nice .. how i wish i could have this kinda feel~ haha. their music also touched my heart! such nice pieces of music.. y hadnt i heard of them before! haiz.. gotta start findin classical pieces to listen to.. orchestra music FTW! haha.

thought i never thought of being in a orchestra.. but it seems nice too. i might not have much talent in anything.. but i do love to play in a orchestra or a band haha. its cool and amazing!

alrites jux write till here.. nthin much to update anw.. haha. other than findin my money getting drained like water from FOOD! lol...

Weee.. finally .. i think i wont haf to retake! =D.. thks ren QI i owe u loads man! .. im gonna work hard for next sem! i wont let u guys down =].. i'll definately pass tmr de lab test! hehe =D

Anw.. yesterday was valentines day~ awww so sad we aint haf any valentine.. =.= lol.. well atleast we still had fun XD. haha. We had our Singles Nite! =p. well wats so bad bout single anw. hehe. its nice.. so free. so cool~ haha.

well. its a nice day off.. i bought my neko family XD!!!! though thr are still afew tat i haven collected.. but im gonna buy them all! haha. one looks like a girl de bag.. dunno wan buy anot sia.. ><.. headache. LOL!.. i shall start plannin on my holidays.. gonna perfect my piano in these days.. hehe ok.. off i go byesss

Also.. other than tat post.. i have this song tat im currently stuck wif.. title is 爱你. dunno y i like this song.. perhaps of the rythm bah.. some parts of the lyrics too..

爱你 - 袁嘉乐

星期天 我坐在咖啡店的窗边
看着她手牵手走到我面前说
我对你已没感觉

你房间 他的相片
只留下一种回忆 不能说谁的错
我知道我很丑 这句话让我好伤
难道所有情侣 都是美好 那我又怎样
就算有一天我真的走了
我看了看了你 心也会伤

我真的想爱你
大声说我真爱你
虽然是牵着别人的手
我也不会在意
想一次一次的抱你
把你拥入我怀里
不管以后会怎么样
我会还是一样
一样的想着你

你房间 他的相片
只留下一种回忆 不能说谁的错
我知道我很丑 这句话让我好伤
难道所有情侣 都是美好 那我又怎样
就算有一天我真的走了
我看了看了你 心也会伤

我真的想爱你
大声说我真爱你
虽然是牵着别人的手
我也不会在意
想一次一次的抱你
把你拥入我怀里
不管以后会怎么样
我会还是一样
一样的想着你

我真的想爱你
大声说我真爱你
虽然是牵着别人的手
我也不会在意
想一次一次的抱你
把你拥入我怀里
不管以后会怎么样
我会还是一样
一样的想着你

想着你~~

Ok~ back to do a post again..Damn sad.. nothin emo to posts about =.= haiz.. haha.. XD.. cause nothin emo to post about tats y the post is so damn freakin short can.!!! ><.. ok this are all extra stuffs tat u guys are readin to make the post longer =p waahhahahhaha. loL~..

Well, today is the day whr ppl are free from everything.. while they're free.. im still stuck wif the upcommin lab retest and exams commin in 2 weeks.. hope i can pass my lab test this round.. hmmm.. maybe im gonna redo my code again.. and give on sunday... unless i cant solve tat freakin linka error.. im jux gonna give up and pass it in =.= stupid lo~ .. im gonna retake the sub cause of this.. haiz.. gonna miss u guys man T_T

I KNOW ITS MY FAULT LAH! OK!... I suck! AND FIRST OF ALL CAUSE I GOT NO GOD DAMN KNOWLEDGE IN PROGRAMMING AT ALL AND IM NOT EVEN REALLY TAT INTERESTED IN DOIN PROGRAMMIN =.=....tats y i screwed up ... so fucked up can.. i am freakin pissed off.. and ricky.. thks for givin up on me ^^ cause i know im beyond hopelike.. nthin u can do to save me.. im like a total retard and noob by takin and doin this programmin. whr i dun even remem all the freakin basics.. i tried to understand by readin through the slides and tryin them.. but i fuckin hell dunno how to implement them in..

Thks to my stupid brain.. i cant get a shit in.. and im in this shit cause im shit.. i can do nthin rite.. other than tryin to do smthin nt related to my sub/course.. i can do any other things. i can jux go be a god damn counsellor or even a photographer.. cant the world jux let me do smthin tat im good in instead of smthin im really bad in?... its like really wtf..

ok nvm bout tat.. if i am given a chance.. i would rather quit studyin in sg now and go Aus to study again for 5 years in the vet course.. at least i am confident i can excel in tat way.. farkin bad choice i've made isnt it..

And im really sry for the troubles i've caused u guys.. srsly.. i am fuckin useless.. i know ok.. i cant do anythin other than give u guys trouble.. its nthin more than more headache for u guys.. wat good am i for.. nthin... i cant even do or make my program rite.. i cant even help LZH in doin gmaps.. WTF.. im freakin useless.. and worst my c++ is so bad.. pls.. i thks u guys for puttin ur efforts to try to teach me.. its my pathetic brain and self tat cant take in all these things.. im so sry~

This sem might be the last sem i'd ever be wif u guys.. haiz.. i didnt wan this to happen... bt its jux too much for me.. even if i started early.. i cant really do much.. cause my foundation is not really thr. ok i shouldnt be blame-ing anything other than myself.. im so fucked up.. im so pathetic.. i should really perish now.. thrs nthin i can do bt create more trouble.. i cant save myself.. no one can save me. Even if i am to perish.. im sure no one would know and even shed a tear for me.. tats how pathetic i am.. for my existence is jux like another pest in this world...no one would ever care about my life or death.. Im invisible even to the naked eye.. will i ever be regconised as a person or will i stay as jux a random entity forever that appears in and out of human eyes.

enough of this.. i had it.. i really wanna leave this world.. but is thr any other place for me to go.. haiz.. maybe off to some barren lands.. or a place whr no one have ever been to and live alone..

Today had a small chat wif JK.. i found out smthin.. i really cant talk to girls.. its like.. i can talk to guys so much more freely than i talk to a girl. im not gonna say wat we talked about.. but.. its the same thing when i was out wif KH.. i can always chat with them for hours and never feel bored.. perhaps cause we all need alittle bit of advices or counselling.. bt.. y isit always tat in face to face chats.. i always seems to talk to guys more and open up more and feel more free compared to talkin to girls. maybe cause the guys are my good frens. we'd share the same thoughts.. we need each other as a support.. and wat are we talkin bout here.. brother hood.. though we know each other outside.. yes we're not classmates.. never was.. but this bond is thr.. better than some of my classmates..

i tried to create lots of bonds wif my classmates.. perhaps cause im more intimidated cause i feel low and useless in the class.. more like a burden to them than a help.. whereas.. outside frens.. we have nthin to compare wif each other.. we can talk our thoughts out.. since we dun know anyother frens ard our own social circle.. ok maybe some .. bt .. we can keep things between us and we wont have to be afraid of wat if him, him or her comes to know bout our things.. they wun even know who i am or who u are.. and ppl dun give a damn to random ppl..

OK lah~ .. i think ima stop here.. gonna sleep le.. haven have much sleep lately..

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TOO ALL!

Dun care bout me.. cause the more u worry bout me... the more u'll feel like im a super heavy burden that u have carried in ur life and i dun wan u to regret it.. i dun wan to leave such a bad impression in ur life either.. SRY FOR ALL THE TROUBLES I'VE CAUSED.

If its my time to go.. i'll jux take my leave.. I dun care in wat way..

Alrites.. Figured i should blog abit since i cant do anything now anyway~ maybe gonna go lzh house again later.. sry dude.. trouble u so much.. go to ur house so many time le~ haha.. must haf been quite a trouble for u and ur parents haha.

Things,.. well.. have soften abit i guess.. finally, jap role play is done.. i think it should be good haha. our role play is like one of the funniest every~ other than ricky's epic ninja and time travel role play~ lol..overall well..quite successful hehe..

For oogp.. crap the lab test.. its damn super screwed.. so left with assignment 2.. gotta chiong le.. must think of how to start sia ><.. i need alot of help.. seriously.. and im gonna ask alot of questions..sry if u find me irritating or smthin.. but its really desperate times.. i must pass or im definately gone..

Went to S.O.Y.A days ago.. haha not bad quite fun.. hehe. And ricky saw this PINK HAIR.. which Drives him in a PINK HAIR frenzy.. lol~.. well gotta say.. the girl is pretty and cute.. but well.. not my type XD.. so yea.. goin on.. saw lots of nice nice cosplayers...some not so nice =.= .. and epic gothic ppl =.= .. damn scary serious..lol..

Then we saw Leonard! hahaha. he was cosplayin Bill From L4D! weee.. so nice to see him and he's funny. haha. we grouped ard some other people wif him and started fooling ard..of course.. 'acting' as if we're in L4D whr i act as chris LOL!... get TAT HUNTER OFF ME!! ROAR! hahaha. damn funny.. well pretty good day off..

Was runnin ard alot this week.. went to lzh and ricky's house to stay over to complete my Ides.. lucky it was done.. not really good but atleast still acceptable bah~ pls dun screw up >< haha.

Haven really been gettin much sleep lately cause thinkin bout loads of stuffs and assignments and homeworks.. haiz.. stress is really a real godlike prob hehe.. ricky nearly had on over drive and went mad for awhile in sch == lol~.. well cant blame him.. we're all under massive stress due to these assignments =.= .. crap .. seriously crap..

Better of.. well.. tues WE're GONNA HAVE OUR DOTA MATCH MUAHAHHAHA.. cant wait for it sia.. its my first dota competition ever.. i wanna win ><.. haha. haven really had much time to train though =/ .. but i guess it should be alrite if we give it our best shot.. Lets rock them off the world guys! HOOOH AHH! ROCK AND ROLL BABY!

Next week.. assignments due.. most stuffs and gonna be done. so yea.. after next week can rest abit.. but still got exams so gotta study .. hehe. still cant find the music i wan on piano =/ though i had a brief melody le.. but need find the right lyrics for it haiz.. haha

my second song.. wanted it to be guitar... but since i dunno how to.. then i find it on the piano instead.. now i dunno how to play the base. haiz.. roar.. T_T.. need some inspiration.. ok

tats bout it.. haf fun guys take cares..

wanted to make some emo post.. but dunno how to type lol!..

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gg sia

2 test tmr.. im so freakin screwed can...

haiz.. wtf sia..

LAB TEST IS SO FREAKIN SCREWED FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!

HAiz.... ROAR

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OK Gettin mad... Cause im gonna die anw.. hehehe

sooooo... GOOD LUCK PEEPS!...

AND God Save me ^^

I mean.. really... SAVE ME PLEASE!

ok done.. wahahahhaa only here to say ...

We are the Win!