Today.. time passed as usual.. went to sch, met up wif david and wyman to do our counseling psycho project...

we went around finding the so called 'perfect' spot so we can do our video.. but apparently.. the sch is... crappy.. XD.. ok .. jux tat the facility aint there.. so we decided to go to wyman's house to do the project..

Rched his house... he found out that he nv bring his key -.- .. so we walked the 'back door' haha.. i was like uh.. omg.. u can jux enter like tat 0.0? ... nvm..

then went to his room... shifted his bed.. then brought in a few piece of furniture to set up for our video.. i was trying to tune myself to the emo mode.. quite hard wif ppl ard.. cause.. i cant really become like... emo when thrs ppl ard.. its like auto that i wanna make the place fun and interesting..

so yea.. finally felt the mood and we started to take the recording...

we talked and talked.. i was the one getting counseled.. so .. yea.. XD... EMO!!!!

our video recording was suppose to be like ard 10mins.. but it seems like we talked too much .. =p.. we ended up wif a total of 16mins+... so .. gotta crop it ..

after that.. we went home.. took bus wif david.. talked for awhile.. finally.. get to know him alittle.. he aint tat cold.. LOL!... Dun kill me XD hahaha..

Jux the impression he gave me when we first met lah... cause he like damn serious and stuffs... then i dun dare talk to him =.=.... LOL!...

OK so.. went home... took 89 from dte.. ( I NEVER GO PLAY TAIKO!!!! OMG!!!!)

rched home.. wanted to go for a run.. but.. haven had dinner.. so cant run without energy -.- .. parents rched home at ard 9pm+ cannot run lo~~~ so late liao.. yea.. so ate and started to try to do my maya again..

SAME RESULT... FARKING SCREW UP!!!!! Im so screwed lah pls.. i dunno how ima survive next week.. i think ima fail this sem lo~~ farked up sia...

yea.. so felt quite upset... kept on thinking wat can i do.. MY HEAD's Gonna blow soon ><...

i Cant Do No Freaking Programming... I cant freaking make my maya stuff... WAT THE FUCK CAN I FREAKING DO! !!!!!! ... :'[

my sprites.. i haven even settled my program u wan me to freaking do my sprites??? WTF SIA...

FARK this lah~~~ im so Freaking screwed ... Cant wait to put a knife rite through my head.. or even pull the trigger of a gun and blast my heart out... WAts the use of slicing the wrist when it hurts so much and watches ur hand bleed... It jux makes you more freaking miserable..

Freaking jux end it wif one shot lah~~~ I really cant Withstand the pressure anymore lo...

Every nite.. something will come to my mind.. i haf ideas to make things perfect.. BUT I JUX CANT FREAKING DO IT CAUSE SOMETHING ALWAYS SCREW UP!... Im giving up on my life soon...

Its jux a few nites back.. I closed my eyes.. I wondered can i end everything if i jux died? ... I even thought of writing a freaking will to pass all my stuffs to charity and frens.. I thought of.. the peace tat will be given to me.. I will Have no more pressure .. NO MORE FREAKING WORK TO PULL ME DOWN.. NO MORE FREAKING WORK TAT I HAF NO LIKING IN DOING!...

Then Comes the thought.. How will i go.. Get killed in a car accident? .. Jump off a building? Stab myself? run straight to the wall and hit my head so hard that it breaks instantly? ... I figured no one would cared anyway... I might as well jux die off somewhr wif no one.. I alrdy pictured no one comming for my funeral..

my hands are shaking... but my eyes are wide open.. it seems like ... its wat ima do soon? .. ima not waste time jux sitting here and rot.. ima spend the best of my time left wif people tat can make me happy.. Work? ... Shit it.. I cant do no work..

Love? I aint got no love.. For fark sake.. Is thr even love... Most of it.. jux expressions of care and concern.. other than tat.. hatred... jealousy.. saddness.. vengence...

I dont know how long i can stay like this before i lose it.. Ima jux end it sooner or later.. sometimes.. i even wished tat i could die running.. from heart attack or smthing.. lung bleeds... stomach burst and cause massive internal bleeding till i drop dead..

Or i would die from a bite of a poisonous animal.. which would end in awhile.. nothing matters... i haf passed on...

If one day i stopped goin to sch... and i never even go online forever.. Im gone i presume.. or i've left to some island alone... I jux hoped tat... if things are gonna end for me...

The entries in this blog.. Someone will print it out and file it in some place.. even make it into a story.. or even make songs outta them..

I aint able to fulfill the things i've promised to some people.. im deeply sorry.. if we're able to meet in the next life.. I'll be sure to fulfill them ... Even at the cost of my life..

I've told ya people.. tat i will never break promises... I've failed some.... I've brokern some.. and its left a mark within tat i'll never forget..

I think it'll be weeks before anyone will come and read.. if by that time im gone.. Check around my house... I might haf left a will somewhr hidden between..

I have never planned to fail.. but this time.. it seems inevitable.. I cant take the blow.. I might fall into great depression.. or im alrdy in one..

It seems like the 2 sides of me switches almost instantly.. once ppl are gone .. the other one will come out to haunt me..

I could type more.. but i think .. i might leave it to some other time.. perhaps .. the last? .. well.. Life have its way for me.. Forced to the edge..

My legs might frost when crossing a busy traffic.. or my heart might fail in a critical situation..

Things will be revealed.. once again.. soon...

God Bless~

Boinks~~~~ hahahaa

Today is a Great Day!!!! I Caught A CAPPY(KAPI) Using Only $1!!!!! RAWR!!!! LOL!!!

hahahaha my luckies DAY EVER!!!!!

seriously~ i didnt even expect tat to happen XD

Its a damn SurPRise!! =DDDDDD

when i press the BIG RED BUTTON, i was like.. hmm.. ima jux do it for fun since ricky is trying to catch his totoro clock... then i was like aiming for the '+3' so in case i miss.. i got 3 extra chances to try out for free...

i dunno how.. it ended up on the chance... and i was like.. hmmm.. wats tat about...

MIRACLE!!!! the Claws GRAPPED THE KAPI ALL THE WAY TO THE HOLE!! ! ! ! !LOL!...

Zuyi, Ricky, me and pokute was like OMG!!! WTF!!!! U CAUGHT IT!!! LOL!..

I was like Jumping around when it dropped down the hole XD... then ricky grapped my kapi and ran out~~~ sayin i suxs LOL!....

Thks Ricky!!! CAUSE U NEVER BUY LEMON TEA TATS Y U NO LUCK!!! RAWR!!!! XD

then i said... i caught it using 1 buck~~~ They went like 0.0.... GG... Bobo is Lucky.. .LOL!..

Luck is my skill MUAHAHAHHAHAHHA

i carried it, hugging it all the way from marina square back to expo the IT Fair~~

Ricky bought a moninter to look at his *Vids* and a Diamondback 3G wif Goliaths Mouse pad... Zuzu bought another Diamondback also.. but wif ExMat and I got My DeathAdder wif ExMat XD...oh got my Sonic Gear Ear Phones Too.. XD Not forgetting My Dear Cappi ~~~ =D WAHAHHAHAHAHHA

Ok then.. hmm.. jux came back from a running routine... every week does this atleast once..

quite fun actually.. but tiring .. i cant seem to run any faster .. -.-...

gotta run MOARE!!!! MEOW!!!!

Emo stuffs... Hmm.. cant seem to beable to come up wif one now ~ XD.. hahhaa

to busy hugging and squishing my cute cute cappy!! lol... GG...

my cats are getting jealous ><...

haha alrites.. short post..

Goodluck haf fun!

It All started.... *Beep beep....*

Yawns... Another day beings... hmmm where am i? .. * looks around at his surroundings*

this place, It's familiar.. oh i remember now.. Im at LaO Laozxc house... LOL!...

Yea... current situation... All's still sleeping... Jem as usual... cant crawl outta da bed..

Cant go swim now... -.-... freaking burning !!!!

kinda bored now actually.. ima start revising on my DSAG...

Jux Wondering If life could ever get more interesting in a way or another..

If something could jux appear to spice up the life.. cause... its kinda shitty... to be spending most of my days away wif guys... not tat im saying anything.. but.. it jux feels odd... like something is missing .. haha..

well.. tats jux life for now aint it.. =p... ima haf to live wif it.. think of it as... living alone once again... back into old old old times.. XD

Sitting beside the bed, typing this entry while looking out the window at the other blocks of flats and the sky... makes me wonder... if thrs someone out thr waiting for me?.. haha

kinda like a wishful dream aint it.. =/...

nothing's ever impossible though... look at things like....

Everyone thinks a pretty girl... or those that we considered very good looking.. should be going out wif a very handsome.. smart or elegant guy~~~ but infact... we'd see alot tat makes us awww... Omg.. Wtf... LOL!..

cause.. from wat i see.. even we... those pretty girls are actually getting hitched by Guys tats like even more... Ok lets not say anything.. hahahaha.. jux say.. they dun look tat good.. we might jux rate them below average.. but stunningly.. their girlfriends.. OMG... is like angels...

Heres the thing... Y aint the good looking ones getting hitched or hitching one while those that aint that nice lookin Get Hitched/attached instead... Conclusion.. cause they're more 'brave' than us...

see... like... they dared to approach.. while the rest of the bunch... stays back at the back.. thinking about things... daring each other.. but no one dares to approach... in fear of getting rejected and stuffs.. in the end.. none got anything bt only the one tat asked got the deal..

Fair? haha..almost perfectly... since the rest got no balls to freaking even ask.. then they aint even worthy... cause .. u know u cant really trust them.. haha.. in times of danger.. they may be the first to run.. the first to turn their backs on ya...

agree? I think most does...

hahaha... ok since its early in the morning I aint gonna type tat long bwahahahha =p

goodluck haf fun for ya test peeps!!! ALL THE WAY!!!

GodBless!