The Explosion
Jan 31, 2009
Ok .. short post... REALLY SHORT...
1. Im Gonna fail C++...
2. I Fail liao cfm Die..
3. WTF IM SO SCREWED
4. I FARKIN GOT NO TIME!
5. LAB TEST ON MONDAY DIE!!!!!
6. HP SPOIL!!!! so dun bother to sms or call me..
7. HAven Finish IDES, GMAPS, JAP SCRIPT, C++ Assignments!
8. FARKIN SCREWED
9. UBER SCREWED
10. SUICIDE TIME!
1. Im Gonna fail C++...
2. I Fail liao cfm Die..
3. WTF IM SO SCREWED
4. I FARKIN GOT NO TIME!
5. LAB TEST ON MONDAY DIE!!!!!
6. HP SPOIL!!!! so dun bother to sms or call me..
7. HAven Finish IDES, GMAPS, JAP SCRIPT, C++ Assignments!
8. FARKIN SCREWED
9. UBER SCREWED
10. SUICIDE TIME!
Jan 22, 2009
Heres a song from Clay Aiken.. I not sure how many of u peeps out thr know bout him but i like his songs. this song (Measure Of A Man), goes out to all lovers and ladies out thr~ hope u like it.
Clay Aiken - Measure of a man
Lyrics:
If one day you discover him
Broken down, he's lost ev'rything
No cars, no fancy clothes
To make him who he's not
The woman at his side
Is all that he has got
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?
(Chorus 1:)
Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire?
Would he give his life up
To be all he can?
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure a man?
If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough
At the end of ev'ry day?
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?
(Repeat chorus 1)
(Bridge:)
He never gives up
Lets go of his dreams
His world goes around
For his one true belief
Is that how you know?
Is that what it means?
(Chorus 2:)
Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you?
Will he be your anchor
When the dark unfolds?
Will he always love you
The best that he knows?
Would he give his life up
To be all he can?
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure a man?
(Chorus 3:)
Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire?
Would he give his life up
To be all he can?
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure, oh, oh
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure a man?
Clay Aiken - Measure of a man
Lyrics:
If one day you discover him
Broken down, he's lost ev'rything
No cars, no fancy clothes
To make him who he's not
The woman at his side
Is all that he has got
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?
(Chorus 1:)
Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire?
Would he give his life up
To be all he can?
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure a man?
If by chance all he had to give you
Was three words wrapped around your finger
Would that be deep enough
At the end of ev'ry day?
And how will you ever know
If a man is what he says?
Why do you ask him move heaven and earth
To prove his love has worth?
(Repeat chorus 1)
(Bridge:)
He never gives up
Lets go of his dreams
His world goes around
For his one true belief
Is that how you know?
Is that what it means?
(Chorus 2:)
Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you?
Will he be your anchor
When the dark unfolds?
Will he always love you
The best that he knows?
Would he give his life up
To be all he can?
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure a man?
(Chorus 3:)
Would he walk on water?
Would he run through fire?
Would he stand before you
When it's down to the wire?
Would he give his life up
To be all he can?
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure, oh, oh
Is that, is that
Is that how you measure a man?
Haiz.... i cant go sch to even study sia =.=... zzzz..
freak Yesterday go sch nia become sick like hell... i thought mornin i was fine... maybe abit wobbly and cough.. still can take bus and walk.. no running or anything like jumping... but in bus..start feelin abit uneasy.. maybe cause hungry.. so after i got off the bus infront of sch.. i walked straight to ITAS to get the sandwich. Started eating once i got it, then went to take the lift.. somehow it taste damn wierd.. maybe cause my mouth is super dry.. even after i drank the water. i rch the 6th floor.. but i forgot whr the lab session was held.. my mind aint workin well.
i sat down on a 'bench'.. opened my bag.. and knowticed i Never bring my File!!!! =.= .. i put my time table inside the file.. so im like 'oh shit' =.=... then i smsed ricky, then sat back and continued eating.. slowly.. recieved his sms.. then cont to the classroom..
Rched the classroom, some classmates went 'wooo omg its boris... blah blah'..cause im late by like 1h...but i am totally not in the mood to even reply or do anything so just walked towards ricky grabbed a chair along the way and sat beside him.. placed my stuffs down and continued eating the 1st of the 3 pieces of bread in the 'sandwich box' tat i bought... i eat very slow rite.. then listen to teacher.. abit abit.. understand abit.. then tio headache.. by the time.. i had finished my 2nd piece.. haven touched my 3rd piece yet.. cause headache make me not feel like eating.. after headache gone then i cont eating.. finished my sandwiches.. then cont to listen to teacher.. bout 10-15mins later.. started feelin giddy for awhile.. then the lab session so called 'ended' not the class.. so the teacher wan us to do our assignment.. i wasn't feelin tat good so rested my head on the table...kept on coughing continuously...
Ricky ask im ok or not.. i jux say ok.. jux need some rest.. nick who is sitting in front knowticed tat im breathin quite heavily.. but i didnt pay much attension to it.. so i jux say its like tat de.. rest awhile should be fine.. kind of 'survived' the gmaths class.. so we proceeded to ides.. went to ides de classroom. i felt kinda abit hungry.. on normal days i sometimes will also feel like tat.. but i can hold it till nite whr either we go out eat together or go home and eat.. so i didnt really care much.. the only thing iwas worried about is the loa form.. cause class ends at 6 and the printing shop closes at bout 5.30.. so i asked ricky to go now to get the loa form before its too late.. so the both of us proceeded to the printing shop to get our loa forms.. its bout 3:15 at tat time. class jux started.. on our way back to class, i suggested tat we go ITAS for awhile cause i need to get water.. the bottle in my bag is alrdy emptied.
So i bought my bottle of water and rick bought his food... we went to take the lift up to the class room. rched the classroom.. at first i still okok can concentrate... then the cough starts taking place again.. i start to cough.. the headache comes back.. then my right lung starts to hurt abit.. the whole day i haven been breathin properly... my breathin is all heavy, short and fast.. jux like after runnin continously for hours.. by this time im alrdy runnin a fever.. bt i didnt know.. so i jux rested my head on the table while tryin to listen to wat the teacher is saying..
then i heard the teacher say we haf to finish the 'home' page by today or smthing... then i tried to pull myself together and started to do.. did abit.. and then cant stand it anylonger.. the headache and gastric pain tat started acting up is gettin all over my head and body.. i cant even lift my head up for more than 5mins.. while everyone is doin their work, im lying there like a dead man.. zuzu came to me and say "U can go home and rest.."bt i say i got no mc.. if go home cfm tio warning letter. tats y i dun wan go home.. every min in the classroom feels like days to me.. i cant look up, i cant do my work, i cant breath properly, my right lung hurts when i or burp, cough or breath too hard or too much. the gastric pain is so servere tat i cant even sit up straight..headache is making me feel giddy.. and my legs totally have no energy...
When i finally cant take it anymore.. i tell ricky to help me ask the teacher if i can go home or not.. while he go and ask.. i slowly pack my stuffs... shutdown my laptop.. haven keep them inside my bag yet cause i cant lift my bag up so i left the things on the table.. then drink some water.. then the teacher came and ask if im alrite..i say i cant breath properly and got headache.. she ask if thrs anyone tat knows of medic stuff.. nick came and check on me.. i told him how im feelin and stuffs.. the teacher thought i was havin asthma.. bt i dun haf .. its jux something wif my lungs and cough tats making me hard to breath.. anw.. she called ppl from the office to help.. then nick and zu helped me up from the chair.. at first im Ahhhhh pain pain pain.. cause of gastric i cant stand up straight or sit up straight.. then when i finally stood up, i cant even walk.. and im being carried by the both of them to the lift then to the staff room whr thrs a bed for me to rest on..
they help me bring my bag and stuffs up.. then the staff member ask me to call my mom.. i called and i cant speak properly.. and the staff wanted to speak to my mom so i passed the phone to her.. apparently my mom ask her to call my dad.. and during tat time.. nick was holdin on to a cold cold cloth tat was placed on my head.. cause im sittin up but not 90 degrees straight up lah.. he haf to hold on to it so it wont fall.. then my dad called me, askin me questions, then my bro called me.. askin me questions again.. i jux told them tat i'd be sent to changi hospital since the staff haf alrdy called an ambulance. nick had volunteered to go wif me to the hospital.. im thankful for tat.. but john chee(our CC) said tat he'll follow me instead and nick should return to class..
when the ambulance arrived, i and nick is still in the staff room, we heard the foot steps and stuffs.. so we assume the ambulance have arrived.. after bout 30sec.. we saw the medical officers come in and started putting their stuffs down and preparing the 'wheel chair'. One of the medical officers then put a 'mask' over my nose and mouth. those tat prevents the cough virus from spearding.. or flu virus.. watever it is.. the mouth mask thingys that people put durin the SARS or some shit... then they put a device on my finger tip.. i dunno wat it is.. bt i thing it is for checking the temperature.. the thing is.. my finger tips are icy cold =.=.. seriously.. damn cold.. i almost cant feel my finger tips at all..
they asked me to move over to sit on the 'wheel chair' i slowly tried to stand but still needed some help from nick.. and sat down on the wheel chair. then they pushed me to the ambulance.. along the way.. i see people looking at me.. bt i dun give a damn lah~~ haiz.. wat can i do being sick till like tat.. before goin into the ambulance.. they have to change the wheel chair into a stretcher.. then pushed it inside the ambulance and we're on our way to the hospital...
Along the way, my fingers gradually grew warmer.. and they asked me some questions. i wonder how long the trip took.. cause i was lying on the stretcher all the way and had no idea how long i've been lying thr. rch le... then see my dad.. but they had to do some check up first.. so blah blah.. check blood pressure everything.. then went out and wait to see the doc.. john chee passed my bag and stuffs to my dad and went back to sch after tat..
I had an x-ray scan of my chest and found tat i had some infection or inflammation on my right lung tats y i've been feeling pain there.. either way.. its still pain.. after goin through the checkups, the doc prescribed me some medications and mc till next week.. damn im gonna miss so much stuffs =.= haiz.. anw thks guys for being so caring for me.. especially rick, zuzu, nick, renqi and LeOnG(LOG). u guys are the best ^^.
Now im at home resting and doin nothin.. cant do any form of sports, cant excercise.. cant study much when i dun even understand much. cant eat any kind of heaty food.. jux plain food.. haiz mmy choice of food have been narrowed to only a few dishes.. sianz
Lastly, i dunno y i still care about other people's buisness when im alrdy so sick and cant takecare of myself.. i really needa knock myself up and give myself some senses.. i gotta stop making myself have more headache by poking into other people's buisness.. its jux wth... no one listens to me, no one finds meanings in my words, no one knows me.. no one knows how i feel.. i need a break, i need to rest.. tats it.. rest.. and no more problems
freak Yesterday go sch nia become sick like hell... i thought mornin i was fine... maybe abit wobbly and cough.. still can take bus and walk.. no running or anything like jumping... but in bus..start feelin abit uneasy.. maybe cause hungry.. so after i got off the bus infront of sch.. i walked straight to ITAS to get the sandwich. Started eating once i got it, then went to take the lift.. somehow it taste damn wierd.. maybe cause my mouth is super dry.. even after i drank the water. i rch the 6th floor.. but i forgot whr the lab session was held.. my mind aint workin well.
i sat down on a 'bench'.. opened my bag.. and knowticed i Never bring my File!!!! =.= .. i put my time table inside the file.. so im like 'oh shit' =.=... then i smsed ricky, then sat back and continued eating.. slowly.. recieved his sms.. then cont to the classroom..
Rched the classroom, some classmates went 'wooo omg its boris... blah blah'..cause im late by like 1h...but i am totally not in the mood to even reply or do anything so just walked towards ricky grabbed a chair along the way and sat beside him.. placed my stuffs down and continued eating the 1st of the 3 pieces of bread in the 'sandwich box' tat i bought... i eat very slow rite.. then listen to teacher.. abit abit.. understand abit.. then tio headache.. by the time.. i had finished my 2nd piece.. haven touched my 3rd piece yet.. cause headache make me not feel like eating.. after headache gone then i cont eating.. finished my sandwiches.. then cont to listen to teacher.. bout 10-15mins later.. started feelin giddy for awhile.. then the lab session so called 'ended' not the class.. so the teacher wan us to do our assignment.. i wasn't feelin tat good so rested my head on the table...kept on coughing continuously...
Ricky ask im ok or not.. i jux say ok.. jux need some rest.. nick who is sitting in front knowticed tat im breathin quite heavily.. but i didnt pay much attension to it.. so i jux say its like tat de.. rest awhile should be fine.. kind of 'survived' the gmaths class.. so we proceeded to ides.. went to ides de classroom. i felt kinda abit hungry.. on normal days i sometimes will also feel like tat.. but i can hold it till nite whr either we go out eat together or go home and eat.. so i didnt really care much.. the only thing iwas worried about is the loa form.. cause class ends at 6 and the printing shop closes at bout 5.30.. so i asked ricky to go now to get the loa form before its too late.. so the both of us proceeded to the printing shop to get our loa forms.. its bout 3:15 at tat time. class jux started.. on our way back to class, i suggested tat we go ITAS for awhile cause i need to get water.. the bottle in my bag is alrdy emptied.
So i bought my bottle of water and rick bought his food... we went to take the lift up to the class room. rched the classroom.. at first i still okok can concentrate... then the cough starts taking place again.. i start to cough.. the headache comes back.. then my right lung starts to hurt abit.. the whole day i haven been breathin properly... my breathin is all heavy, short and fast.. jux like after runnin continously for hours.. by this time im alrdy runnin a fever.. bt i didnt know.. so i jux rested my head on the table while tryin to listen to wat the teacher is saying..
then i heard the teacher say we haf to finish the 'home' page by today or smthing... then i tried to pull myself together and started to do.. did abit.. and then cant stand it anylonger.. the headache and gastric pain tat started acting up is gettin all over my head and body.. i cant even lift my head up for more than 5mins.. while everyone is doin their work, im lying there like a dead man.. zuzu came to me and say "U can go home and rest.."bt i say i got no mc.. if go home cfm tio warning letter. tats y i dun wan go home.. every min in the classroom feels like days to me.. i cant look up, i cant do my work, i cant breath properly, my right lung hurts when i or burp, cough or breath too hard or too much. the gastric pain is so servere tat i cant even sit up straight..headache is making me feel giddy.. and my legs totally have no energy...
When i finally cant take it anymore.. i tell ricky to help me ask the teacher if i can go home or not.. while he go and ask.. i slowly pack my stuffs... shutdown my laptop.. haven keep them inside my bag yet cause i cant lift my bag up so i left the things on the table.. then drink some water.. then the teacher came and ask if im alrite..i say i cant breath properly and got headache.. she ask if thrs anyone tat knows of medic stuff.. nick came and check on me.. i told him how im feelin and stuffs.. the teacher thought i was havin asthma.. bt i dun haf .. its jux something wif my lungs and cough tats making me hard to breath.. anw.. she called ppl from the office to help.. then nick and zu helped me up from the chair.. at first im Ahhhhh pain pain pain.. cause of gastric i cant stand up straight or sit up straight.. then when i finally stood up, i cant even walk.. and im being carried by the both of them to the lift then to the staff room whr thrs a bed for me to rest on..
they help me bring my bag and stuffs up.. then the staff member ask me to call my mom.. i called and i cant speak properly.. and the staff wanted to speak to my mom so i passed the phone to her.. apparently my mom ask her to call my dad.. and during tat time.. nick was holdin on to a cold cold cloth tat was placed on my head.. cause im sittin up but not 90 degrees straight up lah.. he haf to hold on to it so it wont fall.. then my dad called me, askin me questions, then my bro called me.. askin me questions again.. i jux told them tat i'd be sent to changi hospital since the staff haf alrdy called an ambulance. nick had volunteered to go wif me to the hospital.. im thankful for tat.. but john chee(our CC) said tat he'll follow me instead and nick should return to class..
when the ambulance arrived, i and nick is still in the staff room, we heard the foot steps and stuffs.. so we assume the ambulance have arrived.. after bout 30sec.. we saw the medical officers come in and started putting their stuffs down and preparing the 'wheel chair'. One of the medical officers then put a 'mask' over my nose and mouth. those tat prevents the cough virus from spearding.. or flu virus.. watever it is.. the mouth mask thingys that people put durin the SARS or some shit... then they put a device on my finger tip.. i dunno wat it is.. bt i thing it is for checking the temperature.. the thing is.. my finger tips are icy cold =.=.. seriously.. damn cold.. i almost cant feel my finger tips at all..
they asked me to move over to sit on the 'wheel chair' i slowly tried to stand but still needed some help from nick.. and sat down on the wheel chair. then they pushed me to the ambulance.. along the way.. i see people looking at me.. bt i dun give a damn lah~~ haiz.. wat can i do being sick till like tat.. before goin into the ambulance.. they have to change the wheel chair into a stretcher.. then pushed it inside the ambulance and we're on our way to the hospital...
Along the way, my fingers gradually grew warmer.. and they asked me some questions. i wonder how long the trip took.. cause i was lying on the stretcher all the way and had no idea how long i've been lying thr. rch le... then see my dad.. but they had to do some check up first.. so blah blah.. check blood pressure everything.. then went out and wait to see the doc.. john chee passed my bag and stuffs to my dad and went back to sch after tat..
I had an x-ray scan of my chest and found tat i had some infection or inflammation on my right lung tats y i've been feeling pain there.. either way.. its still pain.. after goin through the checkups, the doc prescribed me some medications and mc till next week.. damn im gonna miss so much stuffs =.= haiz.. anw thks guys for being so caring for me.. especially rick, zuzu, nick, renqi and LeOnG(LOG). u guys are the best ^^.
Now im at home resting and doin nothin.. cant do any form of sports, cant excercise.. cant study much when i dun even understand much. cant eat any kind of heaty food.. jux plain food.. haiz mmy choice of food have been narrowed to only a few dishes.. sianz
Lastly, i dunno y i still care about other people's buisness when im alrdy so sick and cant takecare of myself.. i really needa knock myself up and give myself some senses.. i gotta stop making myself have more headache by poking into other people's buisness.. its jux wth... no one listens to me, no one finds meanings in my words, no one knows me.. no one knows how i feel.. i need a break, i need to rest.. tats it.. rest.. and no more problems
Jan 19, 2009
Oh ya and not to forget...saw this in Ricky's blog =p
Pick your birth month. (Mine's April)
→ Change the font to red for anything that doesn’t apply to you.
→ Bold the five that best apply to you.
OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think.Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
Lastly, thinkin bout the past, i found out tat i made a very bad sin.. tat is i shouted vulgarities to my parents and scolds them in silence.. I dun do tat often..Now i dun even say any vulgarities to them or behind their backs.. For the past misdeeds and mistakes... IM sorry for being rebellious and scoldin bad words to mom and dad..
I'll try to replay u when i have the power to.. now im nthin more than a pathetic weakling.. again im sorry.
Pick your birth month. (Mine's April)
→ Change the font to red for anything that doesn’t apply to you.
→ Bold the five that best apply to you.
OCTOBER:Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think.Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.
Lastly, thinkin bout the past, i found out tat i made a very bad sin.. tat is i shouted vulgarities to my parents and scolds them in silence.. I dun do tat often..Now i dun even say any vulgarities to them or behind their backs.. For the past misdeeds and mistakes... IM sorry for being rebellious and scoldin bad words to mom and dad..
I'll try to replay u when i have the power to.. now im nthin more than a pathetic weakling.. again im sorry.
OK.. gotta do some post before i can never type a post again.. its like hell for me to jux sit and type. the coldness tat surrounds me is like under 10 degrees.. i felt like its freezing every second even under the sun. plus the cough isnt makin anything better. infact its making my chest area or the stomuch area hurt even more.. now i can hardly take deep breaths. if i try to.. my lungs will hurt like crap and i'll cough more.
Sometimes when i am walkin.. i'll sway abit to the sides... maybe cause i aint taking in enough oxygen due to the short breathing cycle. when i breath in the air through my mouth, my whole body feels cold and shivers. Bt the breathin cycle is the same.. perhaps 1 sec more.. my breathing cycle now is like 2 sec for in and out. its like Wtf.. Also, the right side of my lungs sometimes hurt for no reason.. perhaps i breathed to hard tryin to grasp for more air.
My head and chest hurts when i cough. its like this should nt be happening.. normally only the throat hurts and tats all.. how come im hurtin so much now.. my hands are shaking, infact my whole body is shaking.. shivering damn badly.. my hands and feet feels like its got frost bite... it's go numb for no reason.. and i have to wait for it to return to normal.. normal as in still shaking.. cold, but i still can move them. the most often part that always go numb is my left hand. i've curled myself into a 'ball' "something u do when u are emo, put ur hands feet head body close together.. but i hardly felt enough warmth to warm up my body.
Having short breaths is is causing quite alot of problem for me.. i aint able to concentrate properly, i might faint anytime if my lungs suddenly fail. when i walk.. i cant walk properly, as i'll feel the stress in my chest and lose balance for a sec. Worst of all..i think my fever is back .. ><... yesterday my fever was 38.6 degrees.. i dunno today will rise to wat temperature again.. panadols aint workin liao sia... Especially today after cmsy, The lab was freakin cold.. it's like really freezing temperature.. i cant feel both of my hands and i was coughin all the way.. i really felt like a zombie.. then.. i know its not ur fault rick, cause u didnt know... u hit my 'weak or switch' spot tat started all the illness again.. now i think im havin fever again. seriously... not ur fault ricky. I did said.. tat i was gonna die of land up in the hospital.. well i think its jux a matter of time before i really end up in the hospital unless a miracle happen and my lungs is healed. i really wanna get well before chinese new year sia... i dun wanna be sick ><....
maybe its fate.. i am not able to enjoy this year de chinese new year T_T..
The Hands Together event was quite fun though.. it was quite stressful for me lah~ cause i am achin everywhere and i think i alrdy having slight fever le.
IM REALLY SORRY JUSTIN!!! REALLY!. im helping out at Hands Together and when i got home i had to rest as i was damn sick.. i cant help u wif the jap.. REALLY SORRY!
Sometimes when i am walkin.. i'll sway abit to the sides... maybe cause i aint taking in enough oxygen due to the short breathing cycle. when i breath in the air through my mouth, my whole body feels cold and shivers. Bt the breathin cycle is the same.. perhaps 1 sec more.. my breathing cycle now is like 2 sec for in and out. its like Wtf.. Also, the right side of my lungs sometimes hurt for no reason.. perhaps i breathed to hard tryin to grasp for more air.
My head and chest hurts when i cough. its like this should nt be happening.. normally only the throat hurts and tats all.. how come im hurtin so much now.. my hands are shaking, infact my whole body is shaking.. shivering damn badly.. my hands and feet feels like its got frost bite... it's go numb for no reason.. and i have to wait for it to return to normal.. normal as in still shaking.. cold, but i still can move them. the most often part that always go numb is my left hand. i've curled myself into a 'ball' "something u do when u are emo, put ur hands feet head body close together.. but i hardly felt enough warmth to warm up my body.
Having short breaths is is causing quite alot of problem for me.. i aint able to concentrate properly, i might faint anytime if my lungs suddenly fail. when i walk.. i cant walk properly, as i'll feel the stress in my chest and lose balance for a sec. Worst of all..i think my fever is back .. ><... yesterday my fever was 38.6 degrees.. i dunno today will rise to wat temperature again.. panadols aint workin liao sia... Especially today after cmsy, The lab was freakin cold.. it's like really freezing temperature.. i cant feel both of my hands and i was coughin all the way.. i really felt like a zombie.. then.. i know its not ur fault rick, cause u didnt know... u hit my 'weak or switch' spot tat started all the illness again.. now i think im havin fever again. seriously... not ur fault ricky. I did said.. tat i was gonna die of land up in the hospital.. well i think its jux a matter of time before i really end up in the hospital unless a miracle happen and my lungs is healed. i really wanna get well before chinese new year sia... i dun wanna be sick ><....
maybe its fate.. i am not able to enjoy this year de chinese new year T_T..
The Hands Together event was quite fun though.. it was quite stressful for me lah~ cause i am achin everywhere and i think i alrdy having slight fever le.
IM REALLY SORRY JUSTIN!!! REALLY!. im helping out at Hands Together and when i got home i had to rest as i was damn sick.. i cant help u wif the jap.. REALLY SORRY!
Jan 17, 2009
Kinda crappy days came back again~~ Nthin much to update bout me actually. Other than being sick since Open House. The illness aint gettin no cured, infact its becommin worst and worst.. my cough worsened, my head starts to ache and spins sometimes, damn throat starts gettin sore, nose block aint goin away and gettin worst, running nose 24/7, feelin feverish ever since i came home today, whole body is aching, from head to toe, cant really walk properly cause of pain and headache.
haiz.. am i dieing or smthin... is my life force being taken away to some far far away place or being consumed by relentless demons from hell. Or is it being given back to mother earth to keep her alive and well.. or perhaps god jux wans to take me away. or even the Almighty devil diablo wans to pull me down to help him in his conquest of destorying every living human.
well i dunno~ jux feels damn sick, argh.. watever it is... i would still have things i wan to see and do and say before my life is taken away from me.
I cant remem wats the last day i made a post.. but .. jux to say..this week have been quite fun, especially wif my classmates and buddies.we did crazy stuffs, talked bout lots of things, met new people (for me), get to join the PERFECT art class. thks ricky for introducing it to me, now i can start to learn how to draw humans =D. Also, I am able to see true master pieces of 'monster' Arts and drawings done by a pro fantasy drawer, i cant wait for next week to check out his works of art. =D
made afew new frens i gotta say.. online and offline both, now i got more people to talk to. =] And i found out tat alot of people are suffering from flu nowadays haha. bt i dun think anyone's flu can get any worst than me. i practically feel like a dead man.. zombie walkin..
Can anything get any worst? yes! Projects are gonna due soon and im so sick now tat i cant even think properly and go get them done.. the cough is extremely annoyin as it makes me lose my concentration then i become fustrated. Oh god, can anyone help me? Im really suffering damn bad now.. if the illness gets any worst... i cfm land up in hospital.. serious.. so if i suddenly disappear from sch.. u know whr i am le.. somewhr in the hospital doin no shit and wasting my life away while gettin healed -.-
Shit lah, Tmr How to go to the Hands Together event sia ><.. sibei sian lei. i wanna help out de lei~.. hopefully i get well by tmr.. bt i think it'll be just the opposite.. =/ i really wanna go de sia.. Y DOESNT MY ILLNESS GETS CURED!. ITS NOT FAIR! well maybe its fate.. haiz.. im down alrite..
monday Cmsy Presentation.. and im in this state..WAT IS THIS!. how am i suppose to do my presentation when im so sick~ T_T.. bloody hell headache lah~
ok .. nvm. gotta say some apologies to Kris, Im not really tryin to be cold towards u. I jux need sometime away to recuperate and get my illness cured.. when i told u i was busy.. i was lying. i wasnt really busy.. i jux dun feel like talkin or doin anything. i see u talk to them.. hmm ok.. good atleast u guys are progressing smoothly. then i shall nt bother u~ im tryin to be selfish i know.. bt i really cant do anything else... maybe im tryin to escape from reality.. maybe i cant face myself anymore.. wat else can i do.. my wings are crippled. i haf fallen. now im jux a weak prey waiting for the predator to come consume me.
Im so useless now.. being struck by bolts of fire and lightening and taking numerous amount of damage for all kinds of problems.. a crossfire tat i got caught in the middle of.. im losing the war. i am gonna run out of energy soon and i am certain to fall. When Death is called upon, A new life is born. For every person that dies, a new soul is born into the world of chaos and suffering. so if i my life were to end, im giving a chance for a new soul to make a difference in the world.
Things does not always makes sense to one. bt given time and understanding.. the truth will be revealed and everyone will agree to it... perhaps.. maybe not. Who knows.. its all in the heart and mind of the human beings.. what u choose to believe and do will result in ur rise and/or fall. every step u make is like moving the chess pieces on the chess board. one wrong move and walla! u are dead.
Ok.. i dunno wat else i can type.. if i ever end up in the hospital.. will u be thr to see me? I hope so~ i Wanna Look at u and hold ur hand for ONE LAST TIME before im gone..and say smthin tat i have nv said for a long time. I LOVE YOU.
Cry's of a fallen angel,
Will anyone care?
haiz.. am i dieing or smthin... is my life force being taken away to some far far away place or being consumed by relentless demons from hell. Or is it being given back to mother earth to keep her alive and well.. or perhaps god jux wans to take me away. or even the Almighty devil diablo wans to pull me down to help him in his conquest of destorying every living human.
well i dunno~ jux feels damn sick, argh.. watever it is... i would still have things i wan to see and do and say before my life is taken away from me.
I cant remem wats the last day i made a post.. but .. jux to say..this week have been quite fun, especially wif my classmates and buddies.we did crazy stuffs, talked bout lots of things, met new people (for me), get to join the PERFECT art class. thks ricky for introducing it to me, now i can start to learn how to draw humans =D. Also, I am able to see true master pieces of 'monster' Arts and drawings done by a pro fantasy drawer, i cant wait for next week to check out his works of art. =D
made afew new frens i gotta say.. online and offline both, now i got more people to talk to. =] And i found out tat alot of people are suffering from flu nowadays haha. bt i dun think anyone's flu can get any worst than me. i practically feel like a dead man.. zombie walkin..
Can anything get any worst? yes! Projects are gonna due soon and im so sick now tat i cant even think properly and go get them done.. the cough is extremely annoyin as it makes me lose my concentration then i become fustrated. Oh god, can anyone help me? Im really suffering damn bad now.. if the illness gets any worst... i cfm land up in hospital.. serious.. so if i suddenly disappear from sch.. u know whr i am le.. somewhr in the hospital doin no shit and wasting my life away while gettin healed -.-
Shit lah, Tmr How to go to the Hands Together event sia ><.. sibei sian lei. i wanna help out de lei~.. hopefully i get well by tmr.. bt i think it'll be just the opposite.. =/ i really wanna go de sia.. Y DOESNT MY ILLNESS GETS CURED!. ITS NOT FAIR! well maybe its fate.. haiz.. im down alrite..
monday Cmsy Presentation.. and im in this state..WAT IS THIS!. how am i suppose to do my presentation when im so sick~ T_T.. bloody hell headache lah~
ok .. nvm. gotta say some apologies to Kris, Im not really tryin to be cold towards u. I jux need sometime away to recuperate and get my illness cured.. when i told u i was busy.. i was lying. i wasnt really busy.. i jux dun feel like talkin or doin anything. i see u talk to them.. hmm ok.. good atleast u guys are progressing smoothly. then i shall nt bother u~ im tryin to be selfish i know.. bt i really cant do anything else... maybe im tryin to escape from reality.. maybe i cant face myself anymore.. wat else can i do.. my wings are crippled. i haf fallen. now im jux a weak prey waiting for the predator to come consume me.
Im so useless now.. being struck by bolts of fire and lightening and taking numerous amount of damage for all kinds of problems.. a crossfire tat i got caught in the middle of.. im losing the war. i am gonna run out of energy soon and i am certain to fall. When Death is called upon, A new life is born. For every person that dies, a new soul is born into the world of chaos and suffering. so if i my life were to end, im giving a chance for a new soul to make a difference in the world.
Things does not always makes sense to one. bt given time and understanding.. the truth will be revealed and everyone will agree to it... perhaps.. maybe not. Who knows.. its all in the heart and mind of the human beings.. what u choose to believe and do will result in ur rise and/or fall. every step u make is like moving the chess pieces on the chess board. one wrong move and walla! u are dead.
Ok.. i dunno wat else i can type.. if i ever end up in the hospital.. will u be thr to see me? I hope so~ i Wanna Look at u and hold ur hand for ONE LAST TIME before im gone..and say smthin tat i have nv said for a long time. I LOVE YOU.
Cry's of a fallen angel,
Will anyone care?
Jan 14, 2009
Next Blog Post~~well ok.. might be quite emotic. haha. Bt its nthin to do wif the day K~ Ricky, dun worry~ nthin bout anything today, Its a great day today ^^.. i dun wan u goin OMG OMG again~ hahaha. jux wat im thinkin bout in the morn when i was takin the bus to sch.. somehow my eyes jux starts getting teary haha~ real emo rite? ^^..
Not much of anything bt, thought of the past again.. haha. I still miss her Loads. I find tat she's the only one tat trust me more than anyone else. haiz.. so sad.. she's alrdy gone off to somewhr.. i jux hope tat we might me able to meet again.
U peeps might catch me staring into the blankness of space, the nite sky, trees, haha.. Bt during these times, my mind is occupied wif thoughts.. whether good or bad.. well doesn't matter rite.. haha. Everytime lookin at the nite sky, i'll see a bright star shining back at me. though there're others in the sky, bt they are not as obvious as tat one. often i'll close my eyes and pray to the star.. prayin for her safety, praying tat we'll have the chance to meet again, praying tat she's been doin well, and other stuffs.
sometimes, i'll pray to the moon.. hoping the beautiful aura will transmit my feelings.. i bet no one knows how it feels. haha, its kinda.. wierd isnt it.. im the only one wif this kinda feelings. of course.. tats wat makes me an outcast. a lone wolf..
Outcasts like us.. me and ricky.. we often do things differently from people.. we prefer having things in our own way and style.. how we think are different from people.. Wat we've experience are also more than wat others felt. U can say tat.. we're harderend veterans in the 'war'.. precisely.. people look at us as anti social, loners, solo players... all these skeptical thoughts of outcasts. Bt we're still human.. and we still live to serve the nation, the human race. jux like others. The only thing tat makes us different.. the pride in us.. we hold on to our pride even in the hardest and most dangerous of situations. people who abandon their pride are not even worth to live as an outcast..
Lonewolf.. Me, work and hunt as a sole warrior. though i, and the other lone wolves, needs help from others at times. we live differently from others. tats wat they dont understand. cause they never haf to go through wat we've been through. perhaps afew of the situations.. bt not all. For every lone wolf.. thrs a different pledge to them. every individual haf different prides in them.. bt the thing is they all held it strong to their hearts and never let them go. My Believe and Pride Tat stays strong in me: Do wat u can to help, Leave non in edge of falling/breaking, Protect all tats close to u, let no harm be done to ur loved ones before u are, save all that u can, think of others before thinkin of self, sacrifices are necsassary at times, not at the sacrifice of others but self, for the sake of others.. This is me.. My pride. my life..
Though there're other things tat i wan to do.. bt.. thr's jux too many things keeping me occupied and distracted tat i cant concentrate.. time for me to let things go and make time for myself.. And i'd guess my work is done.. i've patched u peeps up. so i shall be off to my world once more..
Im happy tat the both of u enjoy talkin to each other more and spending more time wif each other.. it means wat i've done haven gone in vain and the sacrifice is worth the while.. in exchange for happiness in the world, a bit of pain will nt make me fall or give up.
As i've said.. all i've ever wanted is for u to be happy. Tats my wish.. nthing will be better than to see u smile ^^. if u ever face wif problems tat u cant solve.. i'll try to help.. if u ever need a ear to hear ur complains, words or to speak ur heart.. i'll be ur ears. if u ever need a shoulder to cry on.. i'll give u mine. If anyone ever bullies u.. I'll teach them a lesson. If u ever feel unhappy/sad.. i'll try my best to give u my best smile and think of ways to cheer u up and warm up ur heart. If u ever feel cold.. I'll do my best to keep u warm..
Today isnt really much of a bad day.. Thks guys for ur jokes and funny stuffs. it really makes ones world better.. cheers to all the lovers out there. Cherish wat u have before u lose it and regret.. Cause nthing will feel worst than losing smthin/someone u really loved.
May the light shine on you~
May u find the answers that u wan to know~
Hope You'll live everyday happily~ ^^
Not much of anything bt, thought of the past again.. haha. I still miss her Loads. I find tat she's the only one tat trust me more than anyone else. haiz.. so sad.. she's alrdy gone off to somewhr.. i jux hope tat we might me able to meet again.
U peeps might catch me staring into the blankness of space, the nite sky, trees, haha.. Bt during these times, my mind is occupied wif thoughts.. whether good or bad.. well doesn't matter rite.. haha. Everytime lookin at the nite sky, i'll see a bright star shining back at me. though there're others in the sky, bt they are not as obvious as tat one. often i'll close my eyes and pray to the star.. prayin for her safety, praying tat we'll have the chance to meet again, praying tat she's been doin well, and other stuffs.
sometimes, i'll pray to the moon.. hoping the beautiful aura will transmit my feelings.. i bet no one knows how it feels. haha, its kinda.. wierd isnt it.. im the only one wif this kinda feelings. of course.. tats wat makes me an outcast. a lone wolf..
Outcasts like us.. me and ricky.. we often do things differently from people.. we prefer having things in our own way and style.. how we think are different from people.. Wat we've experience are also more than wat others felt. U can say tat.. we're harderend veterans in the 'war'.. precisely.. people look at us as anti social, loners, solo players... all these skeptical thoughts of outcasts. Bt we're still human.. and we still live to serve the nation, the human race. jux like others. The only thing tat makes us different.. the pride in us.. we hold on to our pride even in the hardest and most dangerous of situations. people who abandon their pride are not even worth to live as an outcast..
Lonewolf.. Me, work and hunt as a sole warrior. though i, and the other lone wolves, needs help from others at times. we live differently from others. tats wat they dont understand. cause they never haf to go through wat we've been through. perhaps afew of the situations.. bt not all. For every lone wolf.. thrs a different pledge to them. every individual haf different prides in them.. bt the thing is they all held it strong to their hearts and never let them go. My Believe and Pride Tat stays strong in me: Do wat u can to help, Leave non in edge of falling/breaking, Protect all tats close to u, let no harm be done to ur loved ones before u are, save all that u can, think of others before thinkin of self, sacrifices are necsassary at times, not at the sacrifice of others but self, for the sake of others.. This is me.. My pride. my life..
Though there're other things tat i wan to do.. bt.. thr's jux too many things keeping me occupied and distracted tat i cant concentrate.. time for me to let things go and make time for myself.. And i'd guess my work is done.. i've patched u peeps up. so i shall be off to my world once more..
Im happy tat the both of u enjoy talkin to each other more and spending more time wif each other.. it means wat i've done haven gone in vain and the sacrifice is worth the while.. in exchange for happiness in the world, a bit of pain will nt make me fall or give up.
As i've said.. all i've ever wanted is for u to be happy. Tats my wish.. nthing will be better than to see u smile ^^. if u ever face wif problems tat u cant solve.. i'll try to help.. if u ever need a ear to hear ur complains, words or to speak ur heart.. i'll be ur ears. if u ever need a shoulder to cry on.. i'll give u mine. If anyone ever bullies u.. I'll teach them a lesson. If u ever feel unhappy/sad.. i'll try my best to give u my best smile and think of ways to cheer u up and warm up ur heart. If u ever feel cold.. I'll do my best to keep u warm..
Today isnt really much of a bad day.. Thks guys for ur jokes and funny stuffs. it really makes ones world better.. cheers to all the lovers out there. Cherish wat u have before u lose it and regret.. Cause nthing will feel worst than losing smthin/someone u really loved.
May the light shine on you~
May u find the answers that u wan to know~
Hope You'll live everyday happily~ ^^
Jan 11, 2009
Blog Blog Blog, well, this 3 days in Open house is fun~ serious to say. its enjoyable. though thr are parts which i do feel bored. bt most of the time, cheerings keeps me occupied, happy and high. haha. i suppose this is good. but the thing is.. my throat cant take all the cheerings and stuff and ended up wif a flu. =.= haha. had abit of headache.. cough.. blah blah..
On the last day of OH, jie came to visit us.. haha. We had a hard HarD HARD time jux trying to find her =.= .. cause she plays MIA wif me and zuzu.. we called her.. she nv pick up, sms her, nv reply.. HOW TO FIND HER~~~~!~!~! lol.. zuzu got real Pissed.. and i was like ok relax.. she's probably somewhr ard here.. so lets walk ard to see.. The thing is, we nv see her before and this is the FIRST time seeing her .. =.= .. so.. the chances of us findin her.. OMG.. haha.. so we went and took a slow walk ard.. then i saw her.. PRACTICALLY saw her.. lol!.. i cant cfm.. bt i bet 90% it was her cause i agar agar know her face haha. so we're like tryin to call her to cfm.. then again she nv pick up.. =.=... then we wanted to shout.. bt wat if it ISNT her.. OMg tat would be so.. WTF and Pai seh haha. Finally, we pluck out enough courage to walk to her and then call her.. at first we call her.. she nv turn b.. act like she cant hear.. then we keep on callin.. then she giggled.. zuzu saw it and we cfmed.. so we kept callin her till she turn b LOL!..
had a short chat wif her.. and OMG.. Really OMGAWD! her replies were jux the same as in msn =.=.. haha. then we stare at her with dots and snow commin down LOL!.. cold sia.. haha. well atleast we passed her.. her b'day and christmas Present XD. hope she likes it.. wahhaha.. and THKS FOR YA HAMMIES! weeee so cute wahahhaa.
Then got hammies le.. i parted wif the rest of the guys and headed to bedok to find kris and kel.. they playin lan thr.. so i go join them. at first is wanted to go see her take the 'prize' money de...~ bt was delayed =.=.. so i missed it.. SORRY! haha. so i proceeded to the lan shop.. bloody hell the shop keeper.. sibei tao LOL!.. nvm attitude also damn bad wahahha. at least still get to play though.. we played dota and L4D.. i was like wondering.. OMG SO NOISY.. will my hammies get a heart attack? haha. luckily no =D.. yea so after playin lan~ we went home.. i took a diff bus from them cause i needa put the hammies down and let them settle after being out for so long...
ok.. then.. EMO POST TIME! wahahhaa.
Should i say it or not.. hmmm. i guess so. since i've decided not to hide any longer... and some idiot never listens to me.. its time for me to do something.
SO THIS WILL BE.. THE MOMENT OF TRUTH. Where all lies and secrets will be revealed Once and for all. Everything below Is true and i swear it comes from the bottom of my heart.
The answers u wanna know.. the things i wanna say.. all will be down thr.. for all the answer lies in the eyes of the beholder. Truth will be spilled as the beholder falls to the ground.
First of all... For the Retarded i wan to slap him kick him and punch him.. bt no~~ cause i cant hit anyone unless im super angry.. the reason y i wanna do all these is because.. COME TO UR SENSES IDIOT! DID U FORGOT WAT I TOLD U!.. I expect u to be more sensible than me and more mature.. fuck u are not. didnt i told u to take it slow and easy.. dun make rash actions! and slowly get closer and learn more bout her so u guys or couple can communicate easier.. DUDe ... i dun do anything for me man! Think about it.. I DUN STAND TO GAIN ANYTHING TO HELP U GET CLOSER TO HER. infact i could jux dun tell u ANYTHING and let u get fucked by ur own emotions and retardedness.
Till this.. I Have nthin But to admit.. I LIKE HER. Yes. I LIKE HER.. From the first time i saw her. though i didn't know much at first, im jux like u. strangers to her.. bt eventually we get to know more bout each other so we became closer. Things takes Time DUDE. if u never put in the effort jux to let her be comfortable wif u and let her be more open to u, U'll forever be apart from her. Yes u can say u TRIED. haf u asked urself y it still aint workin?... cause u haven tried hard enough...
It took me some time before we eventually opened up to each other.. its hard yes.. a tough journey. Yes. I dun denie anything of it.. it all comes down to how u talk to her.. How people feel about u dun change overnite.. the trust is built slowly from the start.. jux like growin a seed to a tree.. PATIENCE IS NEEDED DUDE. if u dun understand this and keeps rushin into stuffs.. its no use and u might even kill it.. a tree/seedling will die if u put too much fertiliser thinkin it'll grow faster overnite. Wake up man!. its not like tat. Time is the essence.. Time is all u need. and slowly take one step by one step.. eventually it'll be bearing fruits. Patience DUDE.. PAtience. slowly pour ur love into growin the thing u wan most. put in effort to protect it at all times.dun let it come to being harmed or getting hurt..
These Principles DUDE. Where Are they IN ur Mind!. If u Take A relationship too easily, u'll end up hurting the opposition. Its true! Dun Take me as an idiot cause i know and felt these emotions before. I aint no stupid Know Nthin guy dude!. I think im even more experienced than u think u are. i do feel people's emotion.
Wats more than this.. U actually hurt her.. in a not purposly way. bt u still did! if i am a more violent guy.. i would haf called u out and punched u straight in the face ass.. Dun take my words for nthin.. i swore that i would protect her from harm.. i swore that i would do smthin if she gets hurt. by any means. I will stick to my promises. even if it ends up gettin me myself hurt.. i wouldnt give a damn. cause as long as she's happy.. my mind is at ease. whenever she's upset.. my mind would be clouded wif thoughts on how to make her cheer up and make her happy. i dun like to see some1 i like and love being down.. cause it affects me too. to say tat u really love her. TO WAT EXTENT DUDE!. TILL U CAN DIE FOR HER? U can swear it now and assure me but Will u do it when the real crisis comes?
For me.. Wat i say i will do.. especially for my love and life. if i ever break them i'll be in guilt forever even if the person forgives me.. Will u Be wat i BE!. yes sure u can say no~ Y should u even be like me.. u live ur own way of life.. and to say~ no matter how people see. u are way more handsome than me, smarter than me in many ways. but are u as devoted as me in your promises..? do nt make empty promises if u cant do it.. cause it'll end up hurtin the person u promised. READ ME.. ReAD MY MIND. LOOK ME IN THE EYE. Say u CAN DO IT. Say U'll takecare of her. make her happy. let her be the happiest woman on earth. If u ever break them or if i ever see u hurt her again. i'll never forgive u. U UNDERSTAND ME?
Im not sayin this out of anger. but i jux want u ALL TO KNOW THE TRUTH IN MY MIND. How much i Cared for u. I know i broke some promises.. tats y i always felt guilty in a way or 2. my happy front is to let u know that im comfortable wif wat we're now. in truth. i wan to tell u i LOVE U~ would u Be My Girlfren~ bt i never had the courage to show and say them... Tats y i feel like a loser.
I shouldn't be sayin this but.. im sorry. DUDE! SHE LIKES U, AND HOW CAN U COME UP WITH STUPID WORDS TO HURT HER U BASTARD!. U are rushin too much U IDIOT!. have u even thought of wat the other person will feel anot! I know how she feels. and it makes me feel bad too. She wans to show and say. but she aint ready yet.. Y nt jux give her sometime. wat u say really Breaks a person apart Idiot!. doin this Is like stabbin myself in my heart and killin my soul~ Y am I even Actually Typing this to let u Know tat she Likes U!. I like her~ I wan her to be Wif me. Bt I never wan her to be sad if she's wif me. If she's happy Being wif u I would gladly let her be with u cause seeing her happy is wat i wan~.
To love a person is to make and let the person be happy. Not To make her Feel sad and heart brokern. Tat y im typing this. My reason is simple. If u really like and love her... Give her a chance. Gvie her Time Dude. I cant force love. i cant force feelings. I cant say tat i love her and i wan her to love me too. NO! no such thing man~ she hav her own freedom to give her heart to whoever she loves. if the preson really love u, she'll devote herself to u and u should do the same in return if u really love her. Tats How love is Really suppose to be. Couples being together should be happy not sad. and u haven even become a couple wif her u make her sad. im really disappointed in u dude. Atleast let me haf the feel tat u'll make her the happiest person rite, and not make her sad.
Now u become emo~ WTF is wrong wif u. u are the one rushin into things. u are the one carryin the double edged sword. so u should expect things to go wrong in some way. I am hurtin myself now cause this is jux like a double edged sword. No diff! if u are ever in my place. IF u ever put urself in MY SHOES. u'll know my reasons for doin so.
LEONG! i and u .. WE both like Kris! U say u love her. I love her too. Bt her heart is nt wif me. i AINT NO TELLIN SHIT LIES. This is my Confession! This IS THe TRUTH! Now u ALL KNOW! i can hold it no longer.
I'll take the responsibilities of watever happens next. For things might turn to the ways i dun wan it to. Bt nthin is certain. Mark my words. Cause Truth is Told. No lies, no deception.
Believe me or not. its ur choice. Words i say might make no sense. cause the meanings are deeper than they are.
+For Peace, For Love+
On the last day of OH, jie came to visit us.. haha. We had a hard HarD HARD time jux trying to find her =.= .. cause she plays MIA wif me and zuzu.. we called her.. she nv pick up, sms her, nv reply.. HOW TO FIND HER~~~~!~!~! lol.. zuzu got real Pissed.. and i was like ok relax.. she's probably somewhr ard here.. so lets walk ard to see.. The thing is, we nv see her before and this is the FIRST time seeing her .. =.= .. so.. the chances of us findin her.. OMG.. haha.. so we went and took a slow walk ard.. then i saw her.. PRACTICALLY saw her.. lol!.. i cant cfm.. bt i bet 90% it was her cause i agar agar know her face haha. so we're like tryin to call her to cfm.. then again she nv pick up.. =.=... then we wanted to shout.. bt wat if it ISNT her.. OMg tat would be so.. WTF and Pai seh haha. Finally, we pluck out enough courage to walk to her and then call her.. at first we call her.. she nv turn b.. act like she cant hear.. then we keep on callin.. then she giggled.. zuzu saw it and we cfmed.. so we kept callin her till she turn b LOL!..
had a short chat wif her.. and OMG.. Really OMGAWD! her replies were jux the same as in msn =.=.. haha. then we stare at her with dots and snow commin down LOL!.. cold sia.. haha. well atleast we passed her.. her b'day and christmas Present XD. hope she likes it.. wahhaha.. and THKS FOR YA HAMMIES! weeee so cute wahahhaa.
Then got hammies le.. i parted wif the rest of the guys and headed to bedok to find kris and kel.. they playin lan thr.. so i go join them. at first is wanted to go see her take the 'prize' money de...~ bt was delayed =.=.. so i missed it.. SORRY! haha. so i proceeded to the lan shop.. bloody hell the shop keeper.. sibei tao LOL!.. nvm attitude also damn bad wahahha. at least still get to play though.. we played dota and L4D.. i was like wondering.. OMG SO NOISY.. will my hammies get a heart attack? haha. luckily no =D.. yea so after playin lan~ we went home.. i took a diff bus from them cause i needa put the hammies down and let them settle after being out for so long...
ok.. then.. EMO POST TIME! wahahhaa.
Should i say it or not.. hmmm. i guess so. since i've decided not to hide any longer... and some idiot never listens to me.. its time for me to do something.
SO THIS WILL BE.. THE MOMENT OF TRUTH. Where all lies and secrets will be revealed Once and for all. Everything below Is true and i swear it comes from the bottom of my heart.
The answers u wanna know.. the things i wanna say.. all will be down thr.. for all the answer lies in the eyes of the beholder. Truth will be spilled as the beholder falls to the ground.
First of all... For the Retarded i wan to slap him kick him and punch him.. bt no~~ cause i cant hit anyone unless im super angry.. the reason y i wanna do all these is because.. COME TO UR SENSES IDIOT! DID U FORGOT WAT I TOLD U!.. I expect u to be more sensible than me and more mature.. fuck u are not. didnt i told u to take it slow and easy.. dun make rash actions! and slowly get closer and learn more bout her so u guys or couple can communicate easier.. DUDe ... i dun do anything for me man! Think about it.. I DUN STAND TO GAIN ANYTHING TO HELP U GET CLOSER TO HER. infact i could jux dun tell u ANYTHING and let u get fucked by ur own emotions and retardedness.
Till this.. I Have nthin But to admit.. I LIKE HER. Yes. I LIKE HER.. From the first time i saw her. though i didn't know much at first, im jux like u. strangers to her.. bt eventually we get to know more bout each other so we became closer. Things takes Time DUDE. if u never put in the effort jux to let her be comfortable wif u and let her be more open to u, U'll forever be apart from her. Yes u can say u TRIED. haf u asked urself y it still aint workin?... cause u haven tried hard enough...
It took me some time before we eventually opened up to each other.. its hard yes.. a tough journey. Yes. I dun denie anything of it.. it all comes down to how u talk to her.. How people feel about u dun change overnite.. the trust is built slowly from the start.. jux like growin a seed to a tree.. PATIENCE IS NEEDED DUDE. if u dun understand this and keeps rushin into stuffs.. its no use and u might even kill it.. a tree/seedling will die if u put too much fertiliser thinkin it'll grow faster overnite. Wake up man!. its not like tat. Time is the essence.. Time is all u need. and slowly take one step by one step.. eventually it'll be bearing fruits. Patience DUDE.. PAtience. slowly pour ur love into growin the thing u wan most. put in effort to protect it at all times.dun let it come to being harmed or getting hurt..
These Principles DUDE. Where Are they IN ur Mind!. If u Take A relationship too easily, u'll end up hurting the opposition. Its true! Dun Take me as an idiot cause i know and felt these emotions before. I aint no stupid Know Nthin guy dude!. I think im even more experienced than u think u are. i do feel people's emotion.
Wats more than this.. U actually hurt her.. in a not purposly way. bt u still did! if i am a more violent guy.. i would haf called u out and punched u straight in the face ass.. Dun take my words for nthin.. i swore that i would protect her from harm.. i swore that i would do smthin if she gets hurt. by any means. I will stick to my promises. even if it ends up gettin me myself hurt.. i wouldnt give a damn. cause as long as she's happy.. my mind is at ease. whenever she's upset.. my mind would be clouded wif thoughts on how to make her cheer up and make her happy. i dun like to see some1 i like and love being down.. cause it affects me too. to say tat u really love her. TO WAT EXTENT DUDE!. TILL U CAN DIE FOR HER? U can swear it now and assure me but Will u do it when the real crisis comes?
For me.. Wat i say i will do.. especially for my love and life. if i ever break them i'll be in guilt forever even if the person forgives me.. Will u Be wat i BE!. yes sure u can say no~ Y should u even be like me.. u live ur own way of life.. and to say~ no matter how people see. u are way more handsome than me, smarter than me in many ways. but are u as devoted as me in your promises..? do nt make empty promises if u cant do it.. cause it'll end up hurtin the person u promised. READ ME.. ReAD MY MIND. LOOK ME IN THE EYE. Say u CAN DO IT. Say U'll takecare of her. make her happy. let her be the happiest woman on earth. If u ever break them or if i ever see u hurt her again. i'll never forgive u. U UNDERSTAND ME?
Im not sayin this out of anger. but i jux want u ALL TO KNOW THE TRUTH IN MY MIND. How much i Cared for u. I know i broke some promises.. tats y i always felt guilty in a way or 2. my happy front is to let u know that im comfortable wif wat we're now. in truth. i wan to tell u i LOVE U~ would u Be My Girlfren~ bt i never had the courage to show and say them... Tats y i feel like a loser.
I shouldn't be sayin this but.. im sorry. DUDE! SHE LIKES U, AND HOW CAN U COME UP WITH STUPID WORDS TO HURT HER U BASTARD!. U are rushin too much U IDIOT!. have u even thought of wat the other person will feel anot! I know how she feels. and it makes me feel bad too. She wans to show and say. but she aint ready yet.. Y nt jux give her sometime. wat u say really Breaks a person apart Idiot!. doin this Is like stabbin myself in my heart and killin my soul~ Y am I even Actually Typing this to let u Know tat she Likes U!. I like her~ I wan her to be Wif me. Bt I never wan her to be sad if she's wif me. If she's happy Being wif u I would gladly let her be with u cause seeing her happy is wat i wan~.
To love a person is to make and let the person be happy. Not To make her Feel sad and heart brokern. Tat y im typing this. My reason is simple. If u really like and love her... Give her a chance. Gvie her Time Dude. I cant force love. i cant force feelings. I cant say tat i love her and i wan her to love me too. NO! no such thing man~ she hav her own freedom to give her heart to whoever she loves. if the preson really love u, she'll devote herself to u and u should do the same in return if u really love her. Tats How love is Really suppose to be. Couples being together should be happy not sad. and u haven even become a couple wif her u make her sad. im really disappointed in u dude. Atleast let me haf the feel tat u'll make her the happiest person rite, and not make her sad.
Now u become emo~ WTF is wrong wif u. u are the one rushin into things. u are the one carryin the double edged sword. so u should expect things to go wrong in some way. I am hurtin myself now cause this is jux like a double edged sword. No diff! if u are ever in my place. IF u ever put urself in MY SHOES. u'll know my reasons for doin so.
LEONG! i and u .. WE both like Kris! U say u love her. I love her too. Bt her heart is nt wif me. i AINT NO TELLIN SHIT LIES. This is my Confession! This IS THe TRUTH! Now u ALL KNOW! i can hold it no longer.
I'll take the responsibilities of watever happens next. For things might turn to the ways i dun wan it to. Bt nthin is certain. Mark my words. Cause Truth is Told. No lies, no deception.
Believe me or not. its ur choice. Words i say might make no sense. cause the meanings are deeper than they are.
+For Peace, For Love+
Jan 6, 2009
今天，不知为什么，有一种怪怪的感觉。别问我是什么，因为，我也不懂。一直在喊声叹气的我，还是找不到原因。 虽然，在回家的路程我一直在想，可是，就是想不到。可能是我的心里作用吧，但我就是有一个放不下心的感觉。我有一种，很像有东西要从我的身边离去的感觉。一个，很重要的东西。
然而，我还是不懂。我也不想去想它。有一首歌，它虽然给你或她不一样的原因，感觉。但对我而言，这首歌，有些特别的意义。这首歌，对某些人虽然只是有普普通通，你一定不会想到，这首歌，对我有多么的悲伤，难过。这首歌“从开始到现在”就是有我，现在，在心里的感觉。
这首歌的前端就说到，
“你真的忘得了你的初恋情人吗”
（说真的，很难忘。她已在我脑海里，每一天，不管在哪。她终会出现在我脑海里，虽然只是一小段。但每次一想到她，我终会觉得难过。)
然后，就来了这段，
“假如 有一天，你遇到了跟他长得一模一样的人，他真的就是他吗 还有可能吗”
(着我不懂，我也不希望会再遇见她。虽然这不是我真正要的，但，如果再见到她，我一定会想起以前的一切。这会使我更伤心。对不起。真的，对不起。）
“这是命运的宽容 还是，另一次不怀好意的玩笑”
（也许是吧，命运，没人能控制它。就算是玩笑，被伤到的人，还是我。）
“如果这最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们 告别了单纯
如果重逢也无法继续 失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真 是我太过天真”
（就算是到了世界末日，你依然都会在我的脑海里。望不了你的理由，连我自己都不懂。也许，我对你的爱是永远都不变的。时间把我们之间的距离拉得越来越远，我们已不再是从前的我们。你已找到你的路，我也有了自己的路。你有给我们过一次的机会来从新开始，但我们彼此的距离已不能让我们在一起了。失去的爱，会永远地留在我心里。是我的错，我太天真了。）
“难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等 从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能 我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人”
（我一直都觉得，每个我爱的人，我都留不下来。我不想失去你，所以才选者和你做好朋友。我不想，每一次恋爱的下场都是一样。这有多伤心，难过，悲哀。我终是看到我喜欢的人和别人在一起，但我却什么都做不了。只能眼真真的看着她离开。也许，命运要我永远都找不到我最爱的人。就是因为我说不出口，所以，我才默默地把这段爱放在自己的心里，只和你做好朋友。)
“如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生”
（我不想要所有爱情的结局都是一样，所以，我选择不再爱。失去了，就不要再追究。）
“拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱的深
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我爱错了的人”
（没有什么可以拿来真名，爱很简单。每次想去爱一个人的时候，我都要受很多很多的痛苦和悲哀。想要让你知道我真的爱你，不管受到什么苦或委屈，我都会坚持下去。虽然，我不想爱你，但我对你的感觉，是一辈子都不变的。我爱你，我也，对不起你。因为，我已决定你就是我的唯一)
爱你，一辈子都不变。
相信我。
然而，我还是不懂。我也不想去想它。有一首歌，它虽然给你或她不一样的原因，感觉。但对我而言，这首歌，有些特别的意义。这首歌，对某些人虽然只是有普普通通，你一定不会想到，这首歌，对我有多么的悲伤，难过。这首歌“从开始到现在”就是有我，现在，在心里的感觉。
这首歌的前端就说到，
“你真的忘得了你的初恋情人吗”
（说真的，很难忘。她已在我脑海里，每一天，不管在哪。她终会出现在我脑海里，虽然只是一小段。但每次一想到她，我终会觉得难过。)
然后，就来了这段，
“假如 有一天，你遇到了跟他长得一模一样的人，他真的就是他吗 还有可能吗”
(着我不懂，我也不希望会再遇见她。虽然这不是我真正要的，但，如果再见到她，我一定会想起以前的一切。这会使我更伤心。对不起。真的，对不起。）
“这是命运的宽容 还是，另一次不怀好意的玩笑”
（也许是吧，命运，没人能控制它。就算是玩笑，被伤到的人，还是我。）
“如果这最后的结局
为何我还忘不了你
时间改变了我们 告别了单纯
如果重逢也无法继续 失去才算是永恒
惩罚我的认真 是我太过天真”
（就算是到了世界末日，你依然都会在我的脑海里。望不了你的理由，连我自己都不懂。也许，我对你的爱是永远都不变的。时间把我们之间的距离拉得越来越远，我们已不再是从前的我们。你已找到你的路，我也有了自己的路。你有给我们过一次的机会来从新开始，但我们彼此的距离已不能让我们在一起了。失去的爱，会永远地留在我心里。是我的错，我太天真了。）
“难道我就这样过我的一生
我的吻注定吻不到最爱的人
为你等 从一开始盼到现在
也同样落的不可能
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能 我怎么会愿意承认
你是我不该爱的人”
（我一直都觉得，每个我爱的人，我都留不下来。我不想失去你，所以才选者和你做好朋友。我不想，每一次恋爱的下场都是一样。这有多伤心，难过，悲哀。我终是看到我喜欢的人和别人在一起，但我却什么都做不了。只能眼真真的看着她离开。也许，命运要我永远都找不到我最爱的人。就是因为我说不出口，所以，我才默默地把这段爱放在自己的心里，只和你做好朋友。)
“如果再见是为了再分
失去才算是永恒
一次新的记忆为何还要再生”
（我不想要所有爱情的结局都是一样，所以，我选择不再爱。失去了，就不要再追究。）
“拿什么作证
从未想过爱一个人
需要那么残忍才证明爱的深
难道爱情可以转交给别人
但命运注定留不住我爱的人
我不能我怎么会愿意承认
你是我爱错了的人”
（没有什么可以拿来真名，爱很简单。每次想去爱一个人的时候，我都要受很多很多的痛苦和悲哀。想要让你知道我真的爱你，不管受到什么苦或委屈，我都会坚持下去。虽然，我不想爱你，但我对你的感觉，是一辈子都不变的。我爱你，我也，对不起你。因为，我已决定你就是我的唯一)
爱你，一辈子都不变。
相信我。
ohya.. heres the pics i took of the cat XD
Ok Ok ok... wth.. today is OMFGWTFBBQ day! lol!.. went to sch with a blank mind. Was Late for oogp =.= .. well. nt really LOL!.. i was waitin for Ricky! at outside the 'lan' shop when the tables infront of me starts gettin missing XD haha. it was like.. ok. er.. 4 tables like this
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The X is the Tables.. I was sitting on the 2nd table... then the tables start goin missing... =.=. haha it went like this...
--- -------X--X--X---
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Then
--- ------- --X--X---
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I was like WTF! soon im gonna haf no place to Sit NUUUUUU!!! stupid ricky faster appear!
--- ------- -- --X---
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Last table.. DAMN U RICKY! My bag Damn heavy i dun wan stand HERE! lol!
--- ------- -- -- ---
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Argh shit.. all the tables are gone.. NOOOOOOOO! Y aint u here yet ricky! hahhaa.. then after 5mins.. saw SM and Naz, then saw CM! weeee.. and ricky came out from nowhr =.= wth hahaha. tats when we went to class and started the day..
After school.. well. me, zuzu, leong, ivan. on our lappy.. wanted to cmsk.. bloody hell all go mafia wars -,- then dota.. LOL!.. my cmsk was like WTF! omg.. stupid die.. FORGET it.. im gonna jux Anyhow bomb! Bombs FTW! hehehhee
then at bout dunno wat time.. me and zuzu left.. stupid leong left early so hack care him =.=.. we went to buy A1 bubble tea.. Fuck! the vanilla milk blend was ... argh .. crap lol!. i swear! The Next Time I EVER GONNA BUY A VANILLA MILK BLEND/Shake.. IM gonna buy it from bugis Rockery! loL!. its the BEST i've ever drank and the others all taste LIKE WTF! lol..
surprisingly.. while we were walkin our way to the 27 bus stop across ricky house.. John msged zuzu say he's (ok this is gonna sound familiar LOL) eating a lonely dinner at Tm.. =.= lol... i and zuzu was like .. OMG! LETS GO RAID HIM! lol!.. so we made our way to Tm LJS! XD.. found john there. i am damn surprised wahahhaa... but its damn nice to see him haha
we chatted for awhile then decided to go to his 'new' house, since he jux moved to tamp =.= .. to help him fix his net hahaha. we went.. holy it was Big LOl!... and he lives alone OMG! haha. wats the best.. he got 'KTV' room XD loL!.. i tuned his guitar first.. first time i tune using ear.. so sry if it aint right haha. then went on to sing one song! Chen Yi Xun - Tao Tai! lol!.. tats the only chi song in his disc lah pls =.= .. he sings canto songs >< haha..
Then we went to fix his tv.. Bloody hell... his wires all anyhow put one =.= got vid got pic no audio gg LOL!... then went b to fix his net.. which until the end of the day we still cant fix =.= haiz.. starhub suxs =X lol!.. and went home ..
hehe then here's the best part. i got off my bus stop.. i walk pass my primary sch.. then i see this cat by the fence.. i stood infront and looked at it.. then it 'meowed' and came towards me.. haha OMg its so cute PLS!!! hahaha. i patted on its head.. helped it massaged abit ard the neck and head .. stroke its body hahaha.. omg so nice to touch XD.. haha. so cute somemore.. awww i wan bring it home sia >< haha. it keep rubbing its head and body on my leg haha sooo kawaii! i played wif it like for 30 mins =].. so nice .. haha
after i left it =/ .. *sobs* hahaha. i went to prime mart.. got 2 bottles of 'SUNKISS' Orange juice =.= LOL!... and went home.. jux kinda 'finished' my cmsk.. then blog bout today haha. stupid.. seriously.. i DUN LIKE CMSK! hahaha ok done XD
---X-------X--X--X---
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The X is the Tables.. I was sitting on the 2nd table... then the tables start goin missing... =.=. haha it went like this...
--- -------X--X--X---
------------------------
------------------------
Then
--- ------- --X--X---
-----------------------
-----------------------
I was like WTF! soon im gonna haf no place to Sit NUUUUUU!!! stupid ricky faster appear!
--- ------- -- --X---
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Last table.. DAMN U RICKY! My bag Damn heavy i dun wan stand HERE! lol!
--- ------- -- -- ---
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Argh shit.. all the tables are gone.. NOOOOOOOO! Y aint u here yet ricky! hahhaa.. then after 5mins.. saw SM and Naz, then saw CM! weeee.. and ricky came out from nowhr =.= wth hahaha. tats when we went to class and started the day..
After school.. well. me, zuzu, leong, ivan. on our lappy.. wanted to cmsk.. bloody hell all go mafia wars -,- then dota.. LOL!.. my cmsk was like WTF! omg.. stupid die.. FORGET it.. im gonna jux Anyhow bomb! Bombs FTW! hehehhee
then at bout dunno wat time.. me and zuzu left.. stupid leong left early so hack care him =.=.. we went to buy A1 bubble tea.. Fuck! the vanilla milk blend was ... argh .. crap lol!. i swear! The Next Time I EVER GONNA BUY A VANILLA MILK BLEND/Shake.. IM gonna buy it from bugis Rockery! loL!. its the BEST i've ever drank and the others all taste LIKE WTF! lol..
surprisingly.. while we were walkin our way to the 27 bus stop across ricky house.. John msged zuzu say he's (ok this is gonna sound familiar LOL) eating a lonely dinner at Tm.. =.= lol... i and zuzu was like .. OMG! LETS GO RAID HIM! lol!.. so we made our way to Tm LJS! XD.. found john there. i am damn surprised wahahhaa... but its damn nice to see him haha
we chatted for awhile then decided to go to his 'new' house, since he jux moved to tamp =.= .. to help him fix his net hahaha. we went.. holy it was Big LOl!... and he lives alone OMG! haha. wats the best.. he got 'KTV' room XD loL!.. i tuned his guitar first.. first time i tune using ear.. so sry if it aint right haha. then went on to sing one song! Chen Yi Xun - Tao Tai! lol!.. tats the only chi song in his disc lah pls =.= .. he sings canto songs >< haha..
Then we went to fix his tv.. Bloody hell... his wires all anyhow put one =.= got vid got pic no audio gg LOL!... then went b to fix his net.. which until the end of the day we still cant fix =.= haiz.. starhub suxs =X lol!.. and went home ..
hehe then here's the best part. i got off my bus stop.. i walk pass my primary sch.. then i see this cat by the fence.. i stood infront and looked at it.. then it 'meowed' and came towards me.. haha OMg its so cute PLS!!! hahaha. i patted on its head.. helped it massaged abit ard the neck and head .. stroke its body hahaha.. omg so nice to touch XD.. haha. so cute somemore.. awww i wan bring it home sia >< haha. it keep rubbing its head and body on my leg haha sooo kawaii! i played wif it like for 30 mins =].. so nice .. haha
after i left it =/ .. *sobs* hahaha. i went to prime mart.. got 2 bottles of 'SUNKISS' Orange juice =.= LOL!... and went home.. jux kinda 'finished' my cmsk.. then blog bout today haha. stupid.. seriously.. i DUN LIKE CMSK! hahaha ok done XD
Jan 5, 2009
Hahahhaha.. ok.. eer... today 'Tried' to chiong cmsk.. bt gt owned instead and got pwned by cmsk =.= F**K CMSK... DAMN U SANDRA!!! Y Y Y Y OF ALL STUFF CALL ME DO THIS *&^^^&^*(*&(* LOL!... ok forget it..
6pm went to find kris, cause she say wan go far east..so ok. i went to shop wif her. haha. wanted to get some shirt or pants for myself.. bt didnt really see any real nice ones =.= .. and most of the time was used to help her find a dress and the shop tat she saw the dress tat she wanted to buy...
bt unfortunately.. its out of stock =/ aww hahaha. anw.. so we jux cont walkin up and dwn.. shoppin ard.. saw mason bout 3 times while walkin ard lol!.. I know u 'like' him bt spare him loL!... =X. then cont walkin, finally found a shop wif a dress tat she likes =D haha. its cheap.. lol~ seriously. i mean cheap. dress like tat atleast i thought was $40 haha. after buyin the dress.. walked ard abit.. nthin else to see. bt she's happy can liao lol!.. went to pastamania to eat our dinner.. BAKED RICE.. bt its nt fillin =.= lol!.. atleast still can consider nice lah .. i like the mocca more though =.= bt alot of coffee grains lah wth... make me choke lol!..
After eatin, we went to lan shop at paragon haha. i think is paragon. =p. went thr to play L4D haha.. bloody hell... theres one guy inside.. play L4D scream like girl. =.= .. i nearly went deaf cause the pitch was so high NB! lol.. after L4D. played a match of dota.. wahaha. ok not one.. but half lol!.. cause we left halfway XD.. well.. bnet suxs anw =.= stupid delay haha.
its cheap man.. we play like 1h+.. and its $2.. considered weekend. well cheap hahha. we walked back to douby ghuat.. then i took the train wif her b to simei.. i cont the journey to tamp as simei got no bus for me to go home T_T hahaha.. i got out of the mrt station nia.. see 27 come.. i cant even run to the bus stop lah =,= so far .. lol!.. so yea.. waited for the next bus haha.
so yea tats bout it.. rch home .. had my bath. then type this post since RICKY ALSO HAD A POST! wahahha. i must make a new post too.. hehe. i got no new year resolutions..
maybe Jux one...
Make a song using piano haha.
6pm went to find kris, cause she say wan go far east..so ok. i went to shop wif her. haha. wanted to get some shirt or pants for myself.. bt didnt really see any real nice ones =.= .. and most of the time was used to help her find a dress and the shop tat she saw the dress tat she wanted to buy...
bt unfortunately.. its out of stock =/ aww hahaha. anw.. so we jux cont walkin up and dwn.. shoppin ard.. saw mason bout 3 times while walkin ard lol!.. I know u 'like' him bt spare him loL!... =X. then cont walkin, finally found a shop wif a dress tat she likes =D haha. its cheap.. lol~ seriously. i mean cheap. dress like tat atleast i thought was $40 haha. after buyin the dress.. walked ard abit.. nthin else to see. bt she's happy can liao lol!.. went to pastamania to eat our dinner.. BAKED RICE.. bt its nt fillin =.= lol!.. atleast still can consider nice lah .. i like the mocca more though =.= bt alot of coffee grains lah wth... make me choke lol!..
After eatin, we went to lan shop at paragon haha. i think is paragon. =p. went thr to play L4D haha.. bloody hell... theres one guy inside.. play L4D scream like girl. =.= .. i nearly went deaf cause the pitch was so high NB! lol.. after L4D. played a match of dota.. wahaha. ok not one.. but half lol!.. cause we left halfway XD.. well.. bnet suxs anw =.= stupid delay haha.
its cheap man.. we play like 1h+.. and its $2.. considered weekend. well cheap hahha. we walked back to douby ghuat.. then i took the train wif her b to simei.. i cont the journey to tamp as simei got no bus for me to go home T_T hahaha.. i got out of the mrt station nia.. see 27 come.. i cant even run to the bus stop lah =,= so far .. lol!.. so yea.. waited for the next bus haha.
so yea tats bout it.. rch home .. had my bath. then type this post since RICKY ALSO HAD A POST! wahahha. i must make a new post too.. hehe. i got no new year resolutions..
maybe Jux one...
Make a song using piano haha.
Jan 3, 2009
All rite.. Back for a new post.. XD .. haha. first of all, Happy New Year Ya'll! haha. Happy 2009! Its a new year! so with it, comes a new u, a new me, and NEW THINGS! haha. I cant wait to experience all the new things tats placed infront of me. waiting for me and us to experience new stuffs.! weeeee..
Now, Back to talk bout daily stuffs... so goin back... All the way back.. to.. LAst christmas... OKOK... not so far back.. as in.. the christmas in 2008.. LOL! er.. didn't do much on tat day.. i remem i rched home and fell asleep soon after i rched home and had my bath.. i was suppose to meet kris at plaza sing at 7.00pm.. hahahaha. and retardedly... i overslept =.= lucky she called =D haha. so yea.. i went to wash up.. then change into my goin out cloths and went out.. i had slight sore throat and stuff hahaha. anw.. jux went to find her.. rched thr at bout 20:00h. finally met up wif her hahaha. gave her the presents, and she gave me a christmas card =D.. so cute hahaha, anw.. went to walk ard ps.. then went out.. outside ps thrs this.. i dunno wat crap lah~ lol.. got all this 'figurings' tat looks like the snow white stuff =.= ... watever. .lol.. she say wan to go and see so we went and took a look ard.. wanted to take some photos.. bt the lighting there was EPIC 'GOOD' lol~ the lights make the pics look wierd haha. then after tat.. brought her to play pool =.= .. my god.. haha. im actually so noob lol~. she won me >< .. LOL!.. 1 match actually haha. then after tat she went to find leong and after tat dunno wat... hahahhaa.. i went home. tats christmas alrite.. haha. ok end of this day XD
Next day... should be.. ok i dunno~.. wahahhaa.. before new year. 2 days before new year, I met up wif Lzh, balls. hahaha. we went to Lzh house to ton haha. played dota, warlocks... =.= .. lifeless lOL!.. anw its fun lah haha. then the day before new year.. me, him, balls went to ehub to meet up wif SM... (Shi Ming) ..LOL!..., nick and peifen and then we went for kbox =D .. weee so fun hahaha. i sang alot though my throat aint well XD i love it haha.. damn funny lah~ my voice aint good i know lah! =.=...
After Kbox, we went home to put our stuffs.. as we've planned to meet for countdown at downtown.. so yea.. i went home packed some stuff and went to downtown to meet up wif them. haha. i rch at bout 10 if im nt wrong haha. balls was the first to rch. so i meet up wif him first.. then shortly after lzh rch.. we proceeded to pizza hut to eat XD.. haha. wee. god i love pizza =p haha. after eatin.. nick appeared .. wahahaha. then he settled down bt sadly thr aint food lol.. then peifen and her boy fren came.. we sat down and looked at the tv.. waitin cao ge's entrance XD hahah. damn exciting sia. when he came out we clapped loL!. then we started singin.. -.- .. actually i think im the only one.. lOL!.. at bout 11:40+ bah.. kris called me say she rch le.. so i went to find her.. at first wanted to find her frens.. bt cant find due to some hp prob haha. then she followed me to find Lzh and the others.. Tmd.. in the middle got sprayed .. LOL!. damn argh sia.. they anyhow shoot still can hit my eyes =.= .. haha. so yea.. rched outside pizza whr lzh and the others was. we mingled ard.. talked abit here and thr haha. quite fun .. then came the count down wahahahha. we shouted.. lol.. after tat, sat ard for awhile.. then decided to walk to mac to find kris de fren.. omg.. u wont know how slippery the floor is lol~. damn it.. its like .. Ice LOL!.. no better... its like play.. slide kitty slide XD. haha. then we finally rched the food court in one piece =p .. and finally found her frens standin outside the food court. so me and the others walked to one side while she talks to her other frens. after awhile.. she asked if she can come along to lzh to ton. lzh said ok. weee. the usual nice guy wahahhaha. then keldon, one of her frens also came along. =D. the more the merrier XD haha. lzh is like Yes Man! lol!. ok.. then we rched LZH house~~~
Weeee the first thing we did.. lets see.. er... played big 2.. LOL!... fun sia haha. then kel say wan to show kris the hotel 626 game.. XD.. we all see before le.. so nt scary to us hahahah. she didn't really got scared at the start =/ haha, nt fun sia >< hahahah.. bt she got shocked at the last part LOL!... damn funny ... hahahhaa. she screamed lol~.. we're like laughin badly hahaha =X.. anw..after tat.. stayed in the room and watch tv.. got a little bored so decided to go buy some vodka to drink.. bt we're underage WTH! haha. at first me, kris and kel went to the esso station to see got anot .. but dun haf so we walked to elias mall to buy.. bloody hell... rch thr the uncle say under 18 cannot buy -,- so i called lzh to send some1 down lol... so our hero came.. NICK! XD... we bought 5 bottles. of course... i only drank one.. kel and kris had 2.. and i had milk lOL!... tonned through the nite... played big 2.. for dunno how many hours XD. haha. then went to mac for breakfast.. after eatin.. kel went home.. i send kris to the bus stop then she took the bus and i went b to lzh house.. took my stuffs and left wif nick..
then er.. ok yesterday.. nick came over to my house to ton .. XD hahaha. bloody hell.. i was the trainin partner sia.. he showed me the submission moves.. bt i was the victim =.= LOL!.. the whole nite and day he's been tryin to 'kill' me LOL!.. fun sia XD.. damn funny loL~... well atleast i learnt some defensive moves hahaha. and played ca.. dota, watched 2 movies in a row.. LOL!.. then at nite he left... which is today.. lol... ok tats it .. gg long post sia =.= ..
RICKY! IM SO SORRY THIS POST WILL MAKE U PAK JIAO! LOL!
Now, Back to talk bout daily stuffs... so goin back... All the way back.. to.. LAst christmas... OKOK... not so far back.. as in.. the christmas in 2008.. LOL! er.. didn't do much on tat day.. i remem i rched home and fell asleep soon after i rched home and had my bath.. i was suppose to meet kris at plaza sing at 7.00pm.. hahahaha. and retardedly... i overslept =.= lucky she called =D haha. so yea.. i went to wash up.. then change into my goin out cloths and went out.. i had slight sore throat and stuff hahaha. anw.. jux went to find her.. rched thr at bout 20:00h. finally met up wif her hahaha. gave her the presents, and she gave me a christmas card =D.. so cute hahaha, anw.. went to walk ard ps.. then went out.. outside ps thrs this.. i dunno wat crap lah~ lol.. got all this 'figurings' tat looks like the snow white stuff =.= ... watever. .lol.. she say wan to go and see so we went and took a look ard.. wanted to take some photos.. bt the lighting there was EPIC 'GOOD' lol~ the lights make the pics look wierd haha. then after tat.. brought her to play pool =.= .. my god.. haha. im actually so noob lol~. she won me >< .. LOL!.. 1 match actually haha. then after tat she went to find leong and after tat dunno wat... hahahhaa.. i went home. tats christmas alrite.. haha. ok end of this day XD
Next day... should be.. ok i dunno~.. wahahhaa.. before new year. 2 days before new year, I met up wif Lzh, balls. hahaha. we went to Lzh house to ton haha. played dota, warlocks... =.= .. lifeless lOL!.. anw its fun lah haha. then the day before new year.. me, him, balls went to ehub to meet up wif SM... (Shi Ming) ..LOL!..., nick and peifen and then we went for kbox =D .. weee so fun hahaha. i sang alot though my throat aint well XD i love it haha.. damn funny lah~ my voice aint good i know lah! =.=...
After Kbox, we went home to put our stuffs.. as we've planned to meet for countdown at downtown.. so yea.. i went home packed some stuff and went to downtown to meet up wif them. haha. i rch at bout 10 if im nt wrong haha. balls was the first to rch. so i meet up wif him first.. then shortly after lzh rch.. we proceeded to pizza hut to eat XD.. haha. wee. god i love pizza =p haha. after eatin.. nick appeared .. wahahaha. then he settled down bt sadly thr aint food lol.. then peifen and her boy fren came.. we sat down and looked at the tv.. waitin cao ge's entrance XD hahah. damn exciting sia. when he came out we clapped loL!. then we started singin.. -.- .. actually i think im the only one.. lOL!.. at bout 11:40+ bah.. kris called me say she rch le.. so i went to find her.. at first wanted to find her frens.. bt cant find due to some hp prob haha. then she followed me to find Lzh and the others.. Tmd.. in the middle got sprayed .. LOL!. damn argh sia.. they anyhow shoot still can hit my eyes =.= .. haha. so yea.. rched outside pizza whr lzh and the others was. we mingled ard.. talked abit here and thr haha. quite fun .. then came the count down wahahahha. we shouted.. lol.. after tat, sat ard for awhile.. then decided to walk to mac to find kris de fren.. omg.. u wont know how slippery the floor is lol~. damn it.. its like .. Ice LOL!.. no better... its like play.. slide kitty slide XD. haha. then we finally rched the food court in one piece =p .. and finally found her frens standin outside the food court. so me and the others walked to one side while she talks to her other frens. after awhile.. she asked if she can come along to lzh to ton. lzh said ok. weee. the usual nice guy wahahhaha. then keldon, one of her frens also came along. =D. the more the merrier XD haha. lzh is like Yes Man! lol!. ok.. then we rched LZH house~~~
Weeee the first thing we did.. lets see.. er... played big 2.. LOL!... fun sia haha. then kel say wan to show kris the hotel 626 game.. XD.. we all see before le.. so nt scary to us hahahah. she didn't really got scared at the start =/ haha, nt fun sia >< hahahah.. bt she got shocked at the last part LOL!... damn funny ... hahahhaa. she screamed lol~.. we're like laughin badly hahaha =X.. anw..after tat.. stayed in the room and watch tv.. got a little bored so decided to go buy some vodka to drink.. bt we're underage WTH! haha. at first me, kris and kel went to the esso station to see got anot .. but dun haf so we walked to elias mall to buy.. bloody hell... rch thr the uncle say under 18 cannot buy -,- so i called lzh to send some1 down lol... so our hero came.. NICK! XD... we bought 5 bottles. of course... i only drank one.. kel and kris had 2.. and i had milk lOL!... tonned through the nite... played big 2.. for dunno how many hours XD. haha. then went to mac for breakfast.. after eatin.. kel went home.. i send kris to the bus stop then she took the bus and i went b to lzh house.. took my stuffs and left wif nick..
then er.. ok yesterday.. nick came over to my house to ton .. XD hahaha. bloody hell.. i was the trainin partner sia.. he showed me the submission moves.. bt i was the victim =.= LOL!.. the whole nite and day he's been tryin to 'kill' me LOL!.. fun sia XD.. damn funny loL~... well atleast i learnt some defensive moves hahaha. and played ca.. dota, watched 2 movies in a row.. LOL!.. then at nite he left... which is today.. lol... ok tats it .. gg long post sia =.= ..
RICKY! IM SO SORRY THIS POST WILL MAKE U PAK JIAO! LOL!