MUAHAHAHHAA...OK ToDay is a Crazy day LOL!!!! madness and Laughter. XD hahaha. today is the best day!!! LOL!. early morn 10:30am left my house to take Bus 27 to TM to meet up wif ricky and zuyi. i am suppose to meet ricky at 11:15am... i rch at 11:08am. i sms him.. no reply so nvm...waited and waited.. then smsed zu Zu.. he say he eatin alone in Century Square (Emo!!!!) LOL!. well actually he wanted to repair his phone but sadly the shop was closed due to some stupid reason lol. haha. so i went to find him... on the way to find him... i look at my watch, it was 11:20am.. so i called ricky.. It rang for quite long...and finally he picked it up.. guess wat... he jux woke up == hahaha. I was like ==" wth RICKY!!! LOL!. nvm.. then i met up wif Zu Zu and had our breakfast. After eatin, we went walkin around while waitin for ricky to meet up wif us. Ok.. so when the time finally came, we met up wif him.. it was rainin heheh. he was abit wet here and there haha watever.. well. WE're suppose to meet up with another 2 person.. Joanne and SM. but Joanne Sick so nv come.. SM didn't know he was suppose to meet up wif us and go together.. lol. so the 3 of us went to white Sands to wait for LZH, ZY And Balls. haha. We went to walk ard.. lookin at things. then balls called so we went to meet up wif them. After we met up, we still have to wait for SM since he still haven even rch yet == he live near tm...but took so long to rch pasir ris == LOL! So we waited for sometime.. and he FInally rched XD. and so we set off to ehub to the kbox there haha. We started our singin from 1Pm+ to 7pm LOL!. damn fun can't believe it.. ZY sing so funny lol!. though my singin aint good either, keep on pao ying haha. we had a good laugh and enjoyed alot there haha. I sang alot.. nearly ran out of voice cause throat damn dry haha. we like 'rock' the whole room lol!. so noisy lah haha. then ricky..... lamer go there eat and play psp.. only sang 2-3 songs lOL!. the ice-lemon tea.....so crappy,... is english tea wif lemon in side.. lol!. well. atleast kbox is fun quite cheap...$18 for 6h of singin for each person lol!. after kbox... 7pm! ricky, Sm and zuzu went home.. i, LZH, Balls and ZY went to eat dinner... during dinner...... they talk bout all the stupid things...make me wanna laugh so hard.. i can hardly eat my meal == LOL!. But i still managed to finish with success lol!. Then LZH's good idea.. we go drink kopi == hahaha. of course we did...and talked alot of crap again...make me nearly spit out my tea hahaha. i really cannot take it wanna burst out laughin like mad lol!. ok lah...tats basically my day.. ^^ love it lots. haha. LOVE U GUYS MAN!!! U guys are Great LOL!. Ok its end of exams yesterday... finally nthin to do liao LOL!.

Another Day pass jux like tat.... well today is quite a sleepy day for me. went to school for cmaths test...then waited from 11.30am till 3 pm for the incg class to start... i suppose i can do smthin at tat time, well, was talkin to my frens, had a good laugh here and there. Then we went for the lesson. Learnt quite a few things in class though i was so damn bloody sleepy...was yawnin all the way haha. tried sms-ing my frens.. well got a few replies...but were gone after awhile...maybe they find me too borin or wat...well watever.. wat can a man like me do or talk anw... my mind's always nearly empty and blank... quite hopeless eh haha. sometimes i really wonder how can a guy really communicate well wif a girl.. its like when i compare myself to those guys who are so popular amoung the girls even though they dun really look so good (i dun look good myself), i feel like wth!. I'm such a loser dude.. argh... haha. maybe its my nature of being closed... not really opened only to afew friends tat i truely trust in above others. they're my buddies of course. haha. my Brothers ^^. I tried askin ppl out to haf fun, well, ppl are quite busy nowadays so yea. didn't manage to haha =[. tats life i suppose. cruel as it is .. always feel left out and alone in the wild.. Loneliness is gettin to me... haha. ~~ maybe cause i've started to get use to being around ppl again.. if i had the chance to live in a solitude life again. hmm. maybe i would like to haha. Being able to feel lonely is so miserable. though its only natural for a person. but i really hate the thought of making friends but aint able to talk to them. then wats the point of me even makin friends wif them. I have a hard time to communicate wif almost any1. mostly cause there are things that i rather not speak infront of tat person...it may be rude things, irritating things, stupid things, anything that'll make a person feel tat im a stupid guy.. but yea.. kinda true, im dumb alrite haha. I've always been dreaming of things tat'll nv come true.. depression? haha. shit maybe im gettin it XD. well who knows rite.. jux tat i wont do something tat kills me.. though living doesn't matter to me anymore whether im alive or not. haha. Ppl always says... "I know How You Feel"... but, Do u? it jux isnt the same as before.. even though sometimes i also use the words. I do really think through it 1st whether i really know how he/she really feels, other wise, i would say, "even though i dun know how you really feel, but u need some1 to cry on, shout to, unleash you anger on, etc . U can always find me". The only reason.. i dun mind being beaten up, scolded, shouted at, watever, u can do anything that you like that can make u happy, take my life? well, i dun mind... as i've said.. life's a joke. nthin more to it. I only wan to see ppl happy, as long as you are happy, im satisfied. only if i find tat its unfair to me, then i'll turn on ya... I really got one whole lot of things to write sia...haha. maybe this is how i can destress and do my shout outs. i dun haf any1 to complain to, shout at, watever, jux this will do haha. its better than nthin.. atleast i get to speak my heart out. i jux hope tat things can turn better. If things stay this way... i think i might go crazy one day haha. unless my pride as a lone wolf grows strong in me again. or i wont be able to take as much hits as i did before. I really wanna learn how to talk and chat wif ppl well, cause i dun wanna lose friends after i jux made them.. it feels miserable. well, dun think most of any1 will read this haha. treat it as my area for dumping my feelings lol~ ciaoz~!

Yo ppl! im ok dudes haha.~ thks for the concern, especially u bro(kok) ^^! well.. exams commin~ fri and tues....haiz... studyin is sooooo 'fun' XD. cant study much.. goin holiday mood ~_~". . . . haha. ok lah~~~ though i can hardly sleep these days.. still tried =p haha. sleeping is such a difficult task for me... im so afraid to close my eyes... because everytime i close my eyes, memories jux flow in like water... it makes me sooo hard to sleep. unknowningly, tears will jux come out, i dunno y~~ i cant control my eyes.... and sometimes, i feel so hard to breath, like theres no air around me..and my heart sometimes hurts. like a spear or arrow jux pierced through it,... hmm.. maybe im gonna die.. haha. well watever. it doesn't matter.. life's a joke, nthin good ever happens in life.. so y even bother haha. theres not a day i can really relax~ so sianz... how i wish can become a part of nature. no more worries and pain. tat'll be so good... ah well. it can never happen till the day tat i die. when my body returns bak to earth, the real earth. Atleast now i still have the songs to be wif me through the lone timez~ friends... well.. not much. no one can be there for ya~ haha. Its the selfish nature of humans tat makes ppl fail and destroy each other...the fear tat lies in everyones heart, the greedy thoughts never fails to appear even in the most pure of souls. One says tat he's afraid of nthin, tats lying. every1 will have a fear in his or her heart nomatter wat. arh....haha ok ima stop here. its sad tat the earth wont end ^^~

Saigo no kisu wa tabako no flavor ga shita

Nigakute setsunai kaori



Ashita no imagoro ni wa

Anata wa doko ni irundarou

Dare wo omotterundarou



You are always gonna be my love

Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo

I'll remember to love you taught me how

You are always gonna be the one

Ima wa mada kanashii love song

Atarashi uta utaeru made



Tachidomaru jikan ga

Ugoki dasouto shiteru

Wasureta kunai kotobakari



Ashita no imagoro niwa

Watashi wa kitto naiteru

Anatawo omotterundarou



You will always be inside my heart

Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara

I hope that I have a place in your heart too

Now and forever you are still the one

Ima wa mada kanashii love song

Atarashii uta utaeru made



You are always gonna be my love

Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo

I'll remember to love you taught me how

You are always gonna be the one

Mada kanashii love song

Now and forever


English Translation:


Once in a while

You are in my mind

I think about the days that we had

And i dream that these would all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Nothing goes on in my heart

Just like your memories

How I want here to be with you

Once more



You will always gonna be the one

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Oh, don't say no

You will always gonna be the one in my life

So true, I believe i can never find

Somebody like you

my first love



Once in  awhile

Your are in my dreams

I can feel the your warm embrace

And I pray that it will all come back to me

If only you knew every moment in time

Nothing goes on in my heart

Just like your memories

And how I want here to be with you

Once more

yah yah yah



You will always be inside my heart

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Please don't say no

Now and forever you are still the one

In my heart

So true, I believe I could never find

Somebody like you

My first love

oh oh



You will always gonna be the one

And you should know

How I wish I could have never let you go

Come into my life again

Oh, don't say no

You will always gonna be the one

So true, I believe I could never find

Now and forever