Back For Blog... ok thks To jie for telling me to blog =.= Lol~

Anw.. I wanna grats Jonneh!!! Hope ya Be Happy Forever eh!!!
And i lost .. ='[

ah well.. nt gonna talk much bout it..
Since its over might as well forget it.

Jux now went to the Hospital To visit my uncle...
Damn its so hard to hold my tears back..
Everytime i look at him, i cant help but to feel how fragile life can get.
he used to be so strong, so healthy... Nthing seems to beable to stop him in his tracks
But now. all tat lay infront of me, is a man fallen prey to an incurable illness.
He looks so frail, So weak, like a gust of wind would make him lose his balance
I cant help but to stay silent and hold my saddness.
we cant tell him tat he's health will degenerate and a faster pace.
We cant let him lose hope in living,
so I jux Stood thr and Hold My Tears Back While SHowing A smile on my face ='[
He cant eat, He's suffering everyday and nite.
Aches everywhr, he haf to be fed through a tube which pokes straight into his stomuch.
Looking at it alrdy makes me Feel UNeasy And Down.
I didnt Expect things like tat would happen... But it did..
I once thought i would never feel Saddness for things in life..
But i was wrong..
i Still Haf feelings Left in me.

Though its a Heart of Stone, But It was once Still a living Heart Wif Feelings WIthin.
THe feelings are just Locked away, To prevent me From Furthur Hurt.
But At Times, Certain Images Will Remind the Heart Of What It used To be.
Now It Came Back.. In a Rush Of Pity and saddness.

Hurt not once, But Twice to a Heart Of Shattered Dreams.
I Stood ALone Wif Words Lost in The Mind.
My mouth uttered but No words were spoken

In the Corner of my mind, I prayed FOr God To Heal
In the other Corner, I prayed For God To Relieve.

For looking at one suffer..
Especially One that U are related or haf feelings for,
is as good as Suffering yourself.

Though ONe Chapter Of my life haf ended,
It haf not ended For him, and others.
I haf suffered, And i rather that i'd be the one thats suffering instead.
Since Im all Stoned now, Y not Let me take All Your Punishments.
I am willing to Sacrifice To Cure all The Brokern Hearts.
For one Deed can Change a Million lives,
Let me Do Good For Once.
Though I am Not Any Holy man, Or A person wif a Truely Pure Heart.
But I Would take all the sufferings away so others could live in joy.

If i could, I pray to god, To let me be the one to take The sufferings.
I am willing to take the pain and sufferings.
For I have lived long enough, And i am content to haf done all i could to change ppl's lives for the better

For the better Days.. God Bless!