Back Again~ =]

well.. dont know wat to say..

was jux stunned after watchin a vid on youtube..

It was "Britains got talent".. a video on susan Boyle...

Holy God .. i swear her voice touches a million souls..

Seriously.. People should Never judge a book by it's cover..

this is the prove.. she's 47.. she's old.. she doesnt looks anywhr good..

But.. Her Voice.. Damn.. Its Soo beautiful..

I dont know u peeps.. but she damn sure moved me wif her voice..

It's like an angel's voice..

so Nice.. I cant find a word to describe it.. it was jux too Fantastic~!

Best voice I've ever heard since some time..

Some people are jux such Losers tat they have to flame her and talk bad bout her..

Jux because she haf the talent but doesnt haf the looks..

while the flamers jux got no talent at all.. And I think They DUN EVEN HAVE THE LOOKS!

They're jux jealous over her voice..haiz.. such sadded people.. get a live.. look into the mirror.. and think over it.. WAT DO U HAF TATS BETTER THAN HER TAT U CAN FLAME HER.. Tat applies to other things too.. Looks, Brain.. watever.. People have no rite to flame other people...It jux makes u looks so bad tat u are jux another LOSER in life and is wasting earth's space and resources...

ok.. Even if u do have the looks.. jux treat it as.. ur looks is ur talent.. dun go ard flaming other people wif different talents even if they dont look good in ur eyes..

Over wif it.. Susan Boyle is great.. and she's inspiring to many ppl.. Go on Wif Ur Dream! Make It Real! =D

So.. haven been bloggin lately.. was kinda lazy and tired...

too much work is piling up lately..

I needa plan my time well le..

and.. i will be stayin alone for the next 10 days..

parents are overseas.. gotta do all the house work..

hmm.. think i wont have much time to go out anymore..

sads.. but i guess tats a good thing.. wont waste much money XD

gotta start on my projects soon..

Well.. i've planned to run 4km every alternate day.. so yea... =p..

jux went to run today.. i think i ran bout 3.5km.. and i was tired out alrdy..

my timing was 20min 46 sec.. i was thinking if i can run under 20mins when i started..

well didnt turn out as wat i expected..i needa train up my stamina le..

hmm and yea... i wanna go to the gym.. gotta plan le.. haiz.. too many things to do..

hope things go well for me.. CCA selections commin up.. i dun wanna screw them up~

god help me..

Ok .. Emo stuffs...

It was days back when i was out wif ricky after sch to eat at oppo sch.. i finished my counsslling psycho .. i think it was a thurs.. well dun care..

so while we were eating.. we talked bout girls and guys..

at first.. it was like.. Are we different in other people's eyes..

cause people always look at us like we are different from them..

and then he said.. dont u notice.. the teachers/lecturers remember us easily..

cause.. we're different.. outstanding in a way.. like how we act.. wat we do.. maybe even how we look..

then comes to say.. local people and people like us.. Outcasts..

Does the so called local people even accept us outcasts?...

local people .. hmm.. how to say.. jux the typical singaporean.. judging people by things and stuffs..

Will they ever accept us who are different from them in some ways..

even though we're born the same way.. maybe even in the same country same time..

same day.. because we.. outcasts.. like different things and do different things..

are we casted out jux because we dont really clique in wif others well.. or because we dont have the REQUIREMENTS tat LOCAL People have..

It sounds retarded doesnt it.. as in.. WE're still humans.. Y divide us into such groups and casts us away like we're some alien from a wierd planet..

Then comes in... he said.. wat does a girl see in a guy.. Looks? Style? Talent? Money?

I said.. I dont know.. thr's an unlimited amount of possibilities..

He agrees too.. cause afterall.. we're not girls.. we wont know wat a girl is thinking and wans..

then comes another question.. wat does a guy see in a girl.. I got stunned.. and for awhile i didn't know wat to say.. he too.. doesnt know wat he see's in a girl to attract him..

Both of us.. and many other people like us.. Outcasts.. have been 'Isolated'.. and didnt know wat we wan and wat we see cause we cant see..Much like a blinded man without a stick to guide him along or anyone...

People cant accept us for who we are.. then y should we care.. much less.. me and him.. we both prefer quiet and peaceful lives..

we dun mind living alone.. we're alrdy used to it..

but nthin can stop us from thinkin bout how good it'll be if we have a companion wif us..

He said that he would wanna move to jap to live thr.. wif zu.. they've alrdy planned to move thr after they are done here in sg..

me.. i would like to move thr too.. atleast i get to have 2 good frens wif me in a new country whr we only have each other to rely on..

but i too wanted to live in australia.. cause.. i want to open a ranch.. whr i can keep lots and lots of different animals..

hopefully. become a vet.. but hearing wat my fren said days back when i entered my first psycho lesson.. i cant get in unless i study science in poly.. it was upmost depressing.. cause it's like my dreams are dashed.. and i have no whr else to go.. maybe i go perfect my guitar and piano skills and become a musician to perform? ..

its not my main dream though.. haix... how.. Im really lost..True that i love music.. and i did dream bout tat one day i can make a perfect music tat can soothe peoples hearts and touch them deep within..

Isit even a dream worth realizing?..

Im really lost.. without a goal.. im jux living my life off day by day..

hoping for something to happen..

My heart breaks.. My soul Hurts from wounds left open..

Scars that reminds me of the depressing past.. painful reality that strikes day after day

wishin someone can be beside me to cry out all the sadness..

to meet someone who can heal my wounded soul and broken heart..

As all.. To my Best frens~ Ricky, Zu, Leong, Qi, LZh and many others..

I'll be thr for u when u need me.. i know i am not much of a help..

Im dumb and crap .. I only know limited stuffs..

But i'll do my best to help.. even in small things..

Im all tied up now wif things..

sigh.. Hopefully days ahead will be brighter..

GodBless!

Say..today is the most shag day ever...

Only slept for like 2h 30mins? haha

from 4.30am to 7am...

then prepare go sch.. left house at 8am..

rch sch at bout 9am...

meet up wif the guys at clubroom...

then 9.30am went to sports hall.. refill our drinks...

rch the rowing area at 9.50am

then we started rowing at 10am...

i think is 10.15am bah...haha anw...

we rowed and rowed... tmd.. the sun is epic ZzZzZz...

Hot and HOT sia... but we still cont to row.. till bout 1pm...

i went to bath then went to design canteen to find zuzu and others.. cause they say CM treat..

but .. i never got the money lei... LOL!...

was damn tired lah... wan sleep the whole day..

cant think of anything else but sleep...

Tmr camp liao.. and i lack of sleep GG LAH!!!!

WORST ARH!!!! MY CLASS ALL GUYS!!! KNN!!!!! no Motivation liao lah .. sian sia..

so Called .. Worst Crap i've ever heard =.=...

and so after sem briefing... we went to Tamp1 to walk ard...

then Ricky, zuzu and renqi Ps us without tellin us... BLOODY HELL NEXT TIME TELL US LAH!!!!!....

the remainin few peeps like 6 of us... were wondering ard TM dunno wan do wat.. then decided to go home...

i thought i'd definetly sleep when i rch home..

BUT... when i got off the bus and went to the bball court.. which was along the way to my house..

I SAW JACK, ced, WS, Ced Bro and Jimmy...

wanted to go home.. but.. see bball.. so long nv touch.. and love Bball... sooo.. played 1 match..

at first... thought 1 match then go home.. we played 3v3..

I was abit tired... but after playin got more energy... and surprised i played well.. scored like 4 points of the 11 my team scored XD...

but side effect... cause i nv wear shoes!!!! ahhhh... slippers.. so i took them off and play...

Now got Blister again ... AHHHH PAIN AHHHH!!!!!

aside from the blister.. i think we played another 5 games... LOL!...

well quite fun.. but i wasnt movin ard much and do as well as i did in the first match..

XD.. still did something.. assist.. LOL!.. and screening. =p..

After tat.. i finally made my move and came back home...

=.=... sianz thing is..

I GOT MASSIVE SUN BURN!!!! =.= .. face tio.. arm tio.. leg also tio ><...

Look like Roasted Pig sia..

dunno how to face the freshies tmr =.= ... crap CRAP CRAP!!!!

haiz... sianz..

anw.. Wont be online for the next 3 days.. so...

anything sms me or call me.. ^^..

Have a nice day peeps!

God Bless!

Today.. as usual went for trainin..

ran 2.4km today again.. sian lo...

was worst than last time by 1 sec T_T..

i was 12min flat the last round.. now im 12min 1sec!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!

partly... cause my stomuch hurts like mad =.=

i had lunch at 4pm+... then went to ran at round 5.30pm or 6pm..

wtf sia... it was a god damned bad idea to do tat...

at least i still maintained.. or i could have ran faster lo...

sads lah...

Tmr still got rowing.. hehe

FUN FUN!!!!! but shag...

ok guess nothin much to say..

Save my emo stuffs to the next days XD

I also dun think anyone would read anw..

wats so nice bout a guy's life... when its so boring...

and he's also a nothin.. haiz..

God bless

Haha ok.. back for Posting.. KEEPING IT ALIVE...!!! WOOOOOO!!!!

Today.. Went to Tamp 1. OMG TAT PLACE IS FREAKIN HUGE WITH FREAKIN AWESOME STUFF!!!! LOL!...

Nah not really.. Jux exaggerating .. XD

Went thr Bought quite alot of things.. some Shirts.. a black jeans.. T shirts.. Long Sleeve Shirts and ... THE THE THE THE THE ORANGE BOX!!! AHHHHH OMG!!!! AHHHH!!! LOL!

FINALLY!!!! i CAN PLAY TF2!!!!!! MUAHHAHAHA WEE KIAT!!!! IM GONNA GET UUUUU!!!! hahahaha

Ricky Dun Be Emo pLox... WAHAHHAHA =p..

I know u wan it alot but.. lol!!!! go buy IT AND PLAY TOGETHER!!!! XD

Oh yea.. FASTER COME BACK LAH!!!! hahaha! WE Miss ur lonesome so much lol..
=X

Oh yea.. so haven been bloggin.. cause lazy and was quite busy..

was out for most of the days.. For the days tat i aint out.. IM cleanin up stuffs.. so yea..

No TIme no TIme.. Rawr!!! haha

Have been trainin for DragonBoat this Few weeks.. maybe 5? haha..

and i've gain weight =.= ...

from 60kg - 64kg sia .. omg... 1 month nia 4 kg.. sian lo~~~ haha

How to keep myself light sia XD

Tell Me how.. Tell me Y... Tell me Everything!!!! =p..

lol.. ok.. kinda crappy teh days are.. lookin forward to WEEK 0.. haha

wonder how shag ima be after the first day... XD

Oh yea.. DUDES!!! i saw the Power Gel.. OMg.... I can feel its gonna taste Aweful.. LOL!..

Haha.. saw kok Lip and His frens at Tamp 1.. all dragon boaters.. all Muscle like Wtf Imba.. lol..

Talked for like 30 sec before goin up the escalator.. lol.. shoppin wif parents bo bian must move XD..

so yea.. shop ard and bought the stuffs and came home..

Tired.. haha.. Played dota.. 1v1 wif this Girl.. Though i dun like 1v1 but well.. entertain her lol..

win 1 lost 1.. so .. im noob wahahahhaa

And Yea.. Wats things to say.. hmm.. Haven got my inspiration to make the song yet.. haiz...

make halfway nia.. and i got no more idea..

i need more time and motivation sio... sads.. no time le.. haha..

Facebook says ima live up to a 100 Years..

I think im gonna live up to another few 10 or 20 years up? haha..

Tryin to make my life up to the max nowadays.. not wasting a min..

and result.. gettin tired like mad. =.= .. crappy isnt it..

sem 2.. hopefully i can score well.. my last chance le..

gpa must atleast raise till 3..

i need some freakin motivation sia..

Gotta buck up...

Move On Dude.. Move ON...

Theres nothin left behind but stupid Old Useless emo self..

I cant be like tat anymore.. No more..

I wana Soar high and Make a name out before im outta time..

Still .. as always.. A lone wolf... but im gettin in wif packs.. moving ard diff packs..

still at the upmost of times.. Im still a loner..

Reality never changes.. Do they.. and.. Wierd things happens all ard..

Something u never expected to come.. Came.. those u expect it to be.. It doesnt..

tats how reality works.. Nthin is ever certain.. Nthin is ever right.. and once it strikes..

It strikes hard.. Deep into the wound alrdy left open.. or breaking the failing barrier of courage.. the only thing tat keeps ppl goin..

Sufferings.. Pain..Agony.. Hate.. depression.. Results of a scar left by the piercings and strikes of the painful reality..

some heals.. some doesnt.. THough it healed.. but it may never heal again if it got hit again..harder.. those that doesnt.. fall into deep dark places behind their minds..

losing themselves.. perhaps.. even their lives.. some courage may be born form these teared open wounds.. those who does.. lived again.. for the better.. and is harder to fall..those who dont.. bring wif them the hate and scars to their graves..

Wat iS the reason to my pain...

WAt is the reason to my fears..

isit u.. who had never left me.. but left a deep scar tat never healed..

or isit another.. who jux simply crash my life?..

or isit my pathetic Dreams tat never fails to upset me..

Set backs after set backs.. and yet i face them wif a smile and stood up...

Losing all my strenght to fight back.. but i insisted in never fallin..

goals Dashed.. dreams crashed.. but im still here..

without a thought.. totally blank.. wat is my goal in life...

why am i living.. wats the deal wif me being alive..

wat is my purpose here.. y am i doin this..

y cant i find the courage to ask her out..

y cant i find the courage to tell her that i love her..

y cant i JUX find the courage to even apporach her.. any one...

is tat all to wat i am.. a little worm.. who cant do anything right..who cant even face my fears to conquer them.. who cant step up and say wat i wan and meant to say.. for once.. i wanna do it all.. but i cant..

I have no courage left.. its all been blown away.. Its all over? isit..?

can i build them up again and live up to wat i wan myself to be..

or leave myself to fall prey to the ever ruthless reality..

This.. is live..I am.. Who i am..

I wan to Do wat i wan.. i dun wanna be stopped by my fears..

but its harder to be done.. then jux sayin it out....

on my way to a new life.. trainin everyday to keep myself up..

if i fail.. its the end.. Its the final rush.. buck up little soldier..

And Rush ahead..let nothin stop u.. for u will become a champion at the end.. no matter wat..

Let no set backs hold u back.. Let no hurts and pain slow u down.. let no relationships get u to turn back and stop..

Move Forward..

God Bless