Another Day pass jux like tat.... well today is quite a sleepy day for me. went to school for cmaths test...then waited from 11.30am till 3 pm for the incg class to start... i suppose i can do smthin at tat time, well, was talkin to my frens, had a good laugh here and there. Then we went for the lesson. Learnt quite a few things in class though i was so damn bloody sleepy...was yawnin all the way haha. tried sms-ing my frens.. well got a few replies...but were gone after awhile...maybe they find me too borin or wat...well watever.. wat can a man like me do or talk anw... my mind's always nearly empty and blank... quite hopeless eh haha. sometimes i really wonder how can a guy really communicate well wif a girl.. its like when i compare myself to those guys who are so popular amoung the girls even though they dun really look so good (i dun look good myself), i feel like wth!. I'm such a loser dude.. argh... haha. maybe its my nature of being closed... not really opened only to afew friends tat i truely trust in above others. they're my buddies of course. haha. my Brothers ^^. I tried askin ppl out to haf fun, well, ppl are quite busy nowadays so yea. didn't manage to haha =[. tats life i suppose. cruel as it is .. always feel left out and alone in the wild.. Loneliness is gettin to me... haha. ~~ maybe cause i've started to get use to being around ppl again.. if i had the chance to live in a solitude life again. hmm. maybe i would like to haha. Being able to feel lonely is so miserable. though its only natural for a person. but i really hate the thought of making friends but aint able to talk to them. then wats the point of me even makin friends wif them. I have a hard time to communicate wif almost any1. mostly cause there are things that i rather not speak infront of tat person...it may be rude things, irritating things, stupid things, anything that'll make a person feel tat im a stupid guy.. but yea.. kinda true, im dumb alrite haha. I've always been dreaming of things tat'll nv come true.. depression? haha. shit maybe im gettin it XD. well who knows rite.. jux tat i wont do something tat kills me.. though living doesn't matter to me anymore whether im alive or not. haha. Ppl always says... "I know How You Feel"... but, Do u? it jux isnt the same as before.. even though sometimes i also use the words. I do really think through it 1st whether i really know how he/she really feels, other wise, i would say, "even though i dun know how you really feel, but u need some1 to cry on, shout to, unleash you anger on, etc . U can always find me". The only reason.. i dun mind being beaten up, scolded, shouted at, watever, u can do anything that you like that can make u happy, take my life? well, i dun mind... as i've said.. life's a joke. nthin more to it. I only wan to see ppl happy, as long as you are happy, im satisfied. only if i find tat its unfair to me, then i'll turn on ya... I really got one whole lot of things to write sia...haha. maybe this is how i can destress and do my shout outs. i dun haf any1 to complain to, shout at, watever, jux this will do haha. its better than nthin.. atleast i get to speak my heart out. i jux hope tat things can turn better. If things stay this way... i think i might go crazy one day haha. unless my pride as a lone wolf grows strong in me again. or i wont be able to take as much hits as i did before. I really wanna learn how to talk and chat wif ppl well, cause i dun wanna lose friends after i jux made them.. it feels miserable. well, dun think most of any1 will read this haha. treat it as my area for dumping my feelings lol~ ciaoz~!