Blog Blog Blog, well, this 3 days in Open house is fun~ serious to say. its enjoyable. though thr are parts which i do feel bored. bt most of the time, cheerings keeps me occupied, happy and high. haha. i suppose this is good. but the thing is.. my throat cant take all the cheerings and stuff and ended up wif a flu. =.= haha. had abit of headache.. cough.. blah blah..

On the last day of OH, jie came to visit us.. haha. We had a hard HarD HARD time jux trying to find her =.= .. cause she plays MIA wif me and zuzu.. we called her.. she nv pick up, sms her, nv reply.. HOW TO FIND HER~~~~!~!~! lol.. zuzu got real Pissed.. and i was like ok relax.. she's probably somewhr ard here.. so lets walk ard to see.. The thing is, we nv see her before and this is the FIRST time seeing her .. =.= .. so.. the chances of us findin her.. OMG.. haha.. so we went and took a slow walk ard.. then i saw her.. PRACTICALLY saw her.. lol!.. i cant cfm.. bt i bet 90% it was her cause i agar agar know her face haha. so we're like tryin to call her to cfm.. then again she nv pick up.. =.=... then we wanted to shout.. bt wat if it ISNT her.. OMg tat would be so.. WTF and Pai seh haha. Finally, we pluck out enough courage to walk to her and then call her.. at first we call her.. she nv turn b.. act like she cant hear.. then we keep on callin.. then she giggled.. zuzu saw it and we cfmed.. so we kept callin her till she turn b LOL!..

had a short chat wif her.. and OMG.. Really OMGAWD! her replies were jux the same as in msn =.=.. haha. then we stare at her with dots and snow commin down LOL!.. cold sia.. haha. well atleast we passed her.. her b'day and christmas Present XD. hope she likes it.. wahhaha.. and THKS FOR YA HAMMIES! weeee so cute wahahhaa.

Then got hammies le.. i parted wif the rest of the guys and headed to bedok to find kris and kel.. they playin lan thr.. so i go join them. at first is wanted to go see her take the 'prize' money de...~ bt was delayed =.=.. so i missed it.. SORRY! haha. so i proceeded to the lan shop.. bloody hell the shop keeper.. sibei tao LOL!.. nvm attitude also damn bad wahahha. at least still get to play though.. we played dota and L4D.. i was like wondering.. OMG SO NOISY.. will my hammies get a heart attack? haha. luckily no =D.. yea so after playin lan~ we went home.. i took a diff bus from them cause i needa put the hammies down and let them settle after being out for so long...

ok.. then.. EMO POST TIME! wahahhaa.

Should i say it or not.. hmmm. i guess so. since i've decided not to hide any longer... and some idiot never listens to me.. its time for me to do something.

SO THIS WILL BE.. THE MOMENT OF TRUTH. Where all lies and secrets will be revealed Once and for all. Everything below Is true and i swear it comes from the bottom of my heart.

The answers u wanna know.. the things i wanna say.. all will be down thr.. for all the answer lies in the eyes of the beholder. Truth will be spilled as the beholder falls to the ground.

First of all... For the Retarded i wan to slap him kick him and punch him.. bt no~~ cause i cant hit anyone unless im super angry.. the reason y i wanna do all these is because.. COME TO UR SENSES IDIOT! DID U FORGOT WAT I TOLD U!.. I expect u to be more sensible than me and more mature.. fuck u are not. didnt i told u to take it slow and easy.. dun make rash actions! and slowly get closer and learn more bout her so u guys or couple can communicate easier.. DUDe ... i dun do anything for me man! Think about it.. I DUN STAND TO GAIN ANYTHING TO HELP U GET CLOSER TO HER. infact i could jux dun tell u ANYTHING and let u get fucked by ur own emotions and retardedness.

Till this.. I Have nthin But to admit.. I LIKE HER. Yes. I LIKE HER.. From the first time i saw her. though i didn't know much at first, im jux like u. strangers to her.. bt eventually we get to know more bout each other so we became closer. Things takes Time DUDE. if u never put in the effort jux to let her be comfortable wif u and let her be more open to u, U'll forever be apart from her. Yes u can say u TRIED. haf u asked urself y it still aint workin?... cause u haven tried hard enough...

It took me some time before we eventually opened up to each other.. its hard yes.. a tough journey. Yes. I dun denie anything of it.. it all comes down to how u talk to her.. How people feel about u dun change overnite.. the trust is built slowly from the start.. jux like growin a seed to a tree.. PATIENCE IS NEEDED DUDE. if u dun understand this and keeps rushin into stuffs.. its no use and u might even kill it.. a tree/seedling will die if u put too much fertiliser thinkin it'll grow faster overnite. Wake up man!. its not like tat. Time is the essence.. Time is all u need. and slowly take one step by one step.. eventually it'll be bearing fruits. Patience DUDE.. PAtience. slowly pour ur love into growin the thing u wan most. put in effort to protect it at all times.dun let it come to being harmed or getting hurt..

These Principles DUDE. Where Are they IN ur Mind!. If u Take A relationship too easily, u'll end up hurting the opposition. Its true! Dun Take me as an idiot cause i know and felt these emotions before. I aint no stupid Know Nthin guy dude!. I think im even more experienced than u think u are. i do feel people's emotion.

Wats more than this.. U actually hurt her.. in a not purposly way. bt u still did! if i am a more violent guy.. i would haf called u out and punched u straight in the face ass.. Dun take my words for nthin.. i swore that i would protect her from harm.. i swore that i would do smthin if she gets hurt. by any means. I will stick to my promises. even if it ends up gettin me myself hurt.. i wouldnt give a damn. cause as long as she's happy.. my mind is at ease. whenever she's upset.. my mind would be clouded wif thoughts on how to make her cheer up and make her happy. i dun like to see some1 i like and love being down.. cause it affects me too. to say tat u really love her. TO WAT EXTENT DUDE!. TILL U CAN DIE FOR HER? U can swear it now and assure me but Will u do it when the real crisis comes?

For me.. Wat i say i will do.. especially for my love and life. if i ever break them i'll be in guilt forever even if the person forgives me.. Will u Be wat i BE!. yes sure u can say no~ Y should u even be like me.. u live ur own way of life.. and to say~ no matter how people see. u are way more handsome than me, smarter than me in many ways. but are u as devoted as me in your promises..? do nt make empty promises if u cant do it.. cause it'll end up hurtin the person u promised. READ ME.. ReAD MY MIND. LOOK ME IN THE EYE. Say u CAN DO IT. Say U'll takecare of her. make her happy. let her be the happiest woman on earth. If u ever break them or if i ever see u hurt her again. i'll never forgive u. U UNDERSTAND ME?

Im not sayin this out of anger. but i jux want u ALL TO KNOW THE TRUTH IN MY MIND. How much i Cared for u. I know i broke some promises.. tats y i always felt guilty in a way or 2. my happy front is to let u know that im comfortable wif wat we're now. in truth. i wan to tell u i LOVE U~ would u Be My Girlfren~ bt i never had the courage to show and say them... Tats y i feel like a loser.

I shouldn't be sayin this but.. im sorry. DUDE! SHE LIKES U, AND HOW CAN U COME UP WITH STUPID WORDS TO HURT HER U BASTARD!. U are rushin too much U IDIOT!. have u even thought of wat the other person will feel anot! I know how she feels. and it makes me feel bad too. She wans to show and say. but she aint ready yet.. Y nt jux give her sometime. wat u say really Breaks a person apart Idiot!. doin this Is like stabbin myself in my heart and killin my soul~ Y am I even Actually Typing this to let u Know tat she Likes U!. I like her~ I wan her to be Wif me. Bt I never wan her to be sad if she's wif me. If she's happy Being wif u I would gladly let her be with u cause seeing her happy is wat i wan~.

To love a person is to make and let the person be happy. Not To make her Feel sad and heart brokern. Tat y im typing this. My reason is simple. If u really like and love her... Give her a chance. Gvie her Time Dude. I cant force love. i cant force feelings. I cant say tat i love her and i wan her to love me too. NO! no such thing man~ she hav her own freedom to give her heart to whoever she loves. if the preson really love u, she'll devote herself to u and u should do the same in return if u really love her. Tats How love is Really suppose to be. Couples being together should be happy not sad. and u haven even become a couple wif her u make her sad. im really disappointed in u dude. Atleast let me haf the feel tat u'll make her the happiest person rite, and not make her sad.

Now u become emo~ WTF is wrong wif u. u are the one rushin into things. u are the one carryin the double edged sword. so u should expect things to go wrong in some way. I am hurtin myself now cause this is jux like a double edged sword. No diff! if u are ever in my place. IF u ever put urself in MY SHOES. u'll know my reasons for doin so.

LEONG! i and u .. WE both like Kris! U say u love her. I love her too. Bt her heart is nt wif me. i AINT NO TELLIN SHIT LIES. This is my Confession! This IS THe TRUTH! Now u ALL KNOW! i can hold it no longer.

I'll take the responsibilities of watever happens next. For things might turn to the ways i dun wan it to. Bt nthin is certain. Mark my words. Cause Truth is Told. No lies, no deception.

Believe me or not. its ur choice. Words i say might make no sense. cause the meanings are deeper than they are.

+For Peace, For Love+