Kinda crappy days came back again~~ Nthin much to update bout me actually. Other than being sick since Open House. The illness aint gettin no cured, infact its becommin worst and worst.. my cough worsened, my head starts to ache and spins sometimes, damn throat starts gettin sore, nose block aint goin away and gettin worst, running nose 24/7, feelin feverish ever since i came home today, whole body is aching, from head to toe, cant really walk properly cause of pain and headache.

haiz.. am i dieing or smthin... is my life force being taken away to some far far away place or being consumed by relentless demons from hell. Or is it being given back to mother earth to keep her alive and well.. or perhaps god jux wans to take me away. or even the Almighty devil diablo wans to pull me down to help him in his conquest of destorying every living human.

well i dunno~ jux feels damn sick, argh.. watever it is... i would still have things i wan to see and do and say before my life is taken away from me.

I cant remem wats the last day i made a post.. but .. jux to say..this week have been quite fun, especially wif my classmates and buddies.we did crazy stuffs, talked bout lots of things, met new people (for me), get to join the PERFECT art class. thks ricky for introducing it to me, now i can start to learn how to draw humans =D. Also, I am able to see true master pieces of 'monster' Arts and drawings done by a pro fantasy drawer, i cant wait for next week to check out his works of art. =D

made afew new frens i gotta say.. online and offline both, now i got more people to talk to. =] And i found out tat alot of people are suffering from flu nowadays haha. bt i dun think anyone's flu can get any worst than me. i practically feel like a dead man.. zombie walkin..

Can anything get any worst? yes! Projects are gonna due soon and im so sick now tat i cant even think properly and go get them done.. the cough is extremely annoyin as it makes me lose my concentration then i become fustrated. Oh god, can anyone help me? Im really suffering damn bad now.. if the illness gets any worst... i cfm land up in hospital.. serious.. so if i suddenly disappear from sch.. u know whr i am le.. somewhr in the hospital doin no shit and wasting my life away while gettin healed -.-

Shit lah, Tmr How to go to the Hands Together event sia ><.. sibei sian lei. i wanna help out de lei~.. hopefully i get well by tmr.. bt i think it'll be just the opposite.. =/ i really wanna go de sia.. Y DOESNT MY ILLNESS GETS CURED!. ITS NOT FAIR! well maybe its fate.. haiz.. im down alrite..

monday Cmsy Presentation.. and im in this state..WAT IS THIS!. how am i suppose to do my presentation when im so sick~ T_T.. bloody hell headache lah~

ok .. nvm. gotta say some apologies to Kris, Im not really tryin to be cold towards u. I jux need sometime away to recuperate and get my illness cured.. when i told u i was busy.. i was lying. i wasnt really busy.. i jux dun feel like talkin or doin anything. i see u talk to them.. hmm ok.. good atleast u guys are progressing smoothly. then i shall nt bother u~ im tryin to be selfish i know.. bt i really cant do anything else... maybe im tryin to escape from reality.. maybe i cant face myself anymore.. wat else can i do.. my wings are crippled. i haf fallen. now im jux a weak prey waiting for the predator to come consume me.

Im so useless now.. being struck by bolts of fire and lightening and taking numerous amount of damage for all kinds of problems.. a crossfire tat i got caught in the middle of.. im losing the war. i am gonna run out of energy soon and i am certain to fall. When Death is called upon, A new life is born. For every person that dies, a new soul is born into the world of chaos and suffering. so if i my life were to end, im giving a chance for a new soul to make a difference in the world.

Things does not always makes sense to one. bt given time and understanding.. the truth will be revealed and everyone will agree to it... perhaps.. maybe not. Who knows.. its all in the heart and mind of the human beings.. what u choose to believe and do will result in ur rise and/or fall. every step u make is like moving the chess pieces on the chess board. one wrong move and walla! u are dead.

Ok.. i dunno wat else i can type.. if i ever end up in the hospital.. will u be thr to see me? I hope so~ i Wanna Look at u and hold ur hand for ONE LAST TIME before im gone..and say smthin tat i have nv said for a long time. I LOVE YOU.

Cry's of a fallen angel,
Will anyone care?