OK.. gotta do some post before i can never type a post again.. its like hell for me to jux sit and type. the coldness tat surrounds me is like under 10 degrees.. i felt like its freezing every second even under the sun. plus the cough isnt makin anything better. infact its making my chest area or the stomuch area hurt even more.. now i can hardly take deep breaths. if i try to.. my lungs will hurt like crap and i'll cough more.

Sometimes when i am walkin.. i'll sway abit to the sides... maybe cause i aint taking in enough oxygen due to the short breathing cycle. when i breath in the air through my mouth, my whole body feels cold and shivers. Bt the breathin cycle is the same.. perhaps 1 sec more.. my breathing cycle now is like 2 sec for in and out. its like Wtf.. Also, the right side of my lungs sometimes hurt for no reason.. perhaps i breathed to hard tryin to grasp for more air.

My head and chest hurts when i cough. its like this should nt be happening.. normally only the throat hurts and tats all.. how come im hurtin so much now.. my hands are shaking, infact my whole body is shaking.. shivering damn badly.. my hands and feet feels like its got frost bite... it's go numb for no reason.. and i have to wait for it to return to normal.. normal as in still shaking.. cold, but i still can move them. the most often part that always go numb is my left hand. i've curled myself into a 'ball' "something u do when u are emo, put ur hands feet head body close together.. but i hardly felt enough warmth to warm up my body.

Having short breaths is is causing quite alot of problem for me.. i aint able to concentrate properly, i might faint anytime if my lungs suddenly fail. when i walk.. i cant walk properly, as i'll feel the stress in my chest and lose balance for a sec. Worst of all..i think my fever is back .. ><... yesterday my fever was 38.6 degrees.. i dunno today will rise to wat temperature again.. panadols aint workin liao sia... Especially today after cmsy, The lab was freakin cold.. it's like really freezing temperature.. i cant feel both of my hands and i was coughin all the way.. i really felt like a zombie.. then.. i know its not ur fault rick, cause u didnt know... u hit my 'weak or switch' spot tat started all the illness again.. now i think im havin fever again. seriously... not ur fault ricky. I did said.. tat i was gonna die of land up in the hospital.. well i think its jux a matter of time before i really end up in the hospital unless a miracle happen and my lungs is healed. i really wanna get well before chinese new year sia... i dun wanna be sick ><....

maybe its fate.. i am not able to enjoy this year de chinese new year T_T..

The Hands Together event was quite fun though.. it was quite stressful for me lah~ cause i am achin everywhere and i think i alrdy having slight fever le.

IM REALLY SORRY JUSTIN!!! REALLY!. im helping out at Hands Together and when i got home i had to rest as i was damn sick.. i cant help u wif the jap.. REALLY SORRY!