HellO~.. ok lah~ emo post... once again...

so be prepared to read a wall of text... well sry lah~ i aint those pictures pictures guys...
and also... well.. wats there to see bout a emo pic eh =]

first things first... gotta say thks to all that voted for me...
U guys really supported me and i am really grateful to u guys! Thanks!
Truely from my heart thanks you! =D

But the thing is im sorry that i am not selected to be in the main comm...
=[ its a sad thing but ... i guess its god's will..

maybe its time that i wake up to face the truth that i am really lacking in time to catch up with stuffs..

This may be a chance given to me to start my work like giving time to study my jap and continue to complete my programs..

Like ricky said... Im still not able to get outta my slacker mode... Dude not that i dont want lah~ but i tried to le.. its jux so not me... its kinda hard to change jux like tat...

Perhaps this have already been with me since primary sch.. my happy go lucky mode... never stopped for once.. ok maybe once in awhile... that i actually put tat much time into really studying and doin my work...

Things are really easier said than done.. I've always tried to change my ways... but i cant seem to do it ... always distracted by something.. or drift away from my actual goal.. or getting pulled down by expected and unexpected stuffs...

Last min work haf always been my way.. its bad and really bad.. gotta change the habit.. DAMN... if i have the chance to change my habits.. i would change this stupid habit of mine.. Y cant i bring myself to be like others.. who are always so kan jiong and must finish their work first.. or can listen attentively and absorb all knowledge..

It always seems to me that.. when theres no adrenaline rush for me.. i wont do it.. i must feel the rush then i'll start working.. if not.. My mind would be switched off..

I always like things to be exciting and have a rush about it so i can feel the pressure and feel the excitment within... Im wierd ok... thats me...

ok gonna talk bout other things.. like how people get viewed...

In one moment .. one might say that u are annoying and irritating while at the other.. find u cool and exciting to be with... human psychology i would say...

when people judge another when they don't know each other.. Its not fair at all..

cause when u think about it.. hey u dont know me.. so y do u have to make those unrealistic and unfair judgements about me... jux because on the outside i looks wierd.. i look like a geek, a nerd, a gangster, or anything else... NO way man...

Thrs jux no way... because you dont know me at all.. dont people always say AND hear.. Do not judge a book by its cover? and y does people still does that.... cause.. they jux likes to pass judgement on another...

nothing abnormal actually.. thats jux human i guess.. stupid human thinkings... different people likes different things.. so if u dont like it.. y not jux keep ur mouth shut and keep them to urself... u dont haf to be like telling everyone and passing ur judgement of that particular person to another..

Its ok to judge someone that we all know.. cause maybe all of us are thinking of the same thing.. and also because we know him and atleast knows whats he's like on the inside.. maybe not that deep but.. atleast we get to know something of him/her...

If u jux see the person for the first time.. and u alrdy made unfair judgements bout him/her criticizing his/her personality which u dont even know about and wats more.. u only see the outside.. its so totally untrue and biased..

Maybe i should say.. its the way u look and how u present urself infront of others.. how u act and move actually shows people what kind of person u are... but what if its jux an out of the blue stuff... then u presume that the person is like that for his whole life ? ... is that fair?

Ever wondered how people viewed you instead? and what if u were the one being criticized instead.. will u feel good? ... cause its ur reputation at stake too if it got spreaded around.. if its good.. then gratz.. cause u've become famous amoung the people.. if its the otherwise bad... u will become one of the most outcasted and hated one amoung the people..

Nthing much that i wanted to say actually... but actually jux my view on the people's mindset of judgement.. Jux To say... One should never judge another till he/she have really known the person personally and quite well.. or not.. its jux too early to make a judgement cause it jux might turn out to be the opposite and u have alrdy ruined the person's life by passing on the bad remarks because of ur judgement...

well then.. comming to relationships...

i think i suffered quite alot alrdy.. hahaha..
its a really complicated thing to say... cause.. everyone feels and views relationships in different ways...

nothing much i could say.. brokern relationships are getting quite common nowadays.. especially amoung teens.. cause.. people are jux goin into a relationship for the SAKE of it.. they jux wan to try out smthin new.. and never thought of the consequences and outcomes...

To those that have a lasting relationship.. Gratz to u!
To those that Lost One... Its still early.. take ur time.. these things cannot be rushed.
To those that never had one.. well.. Lets strive hard together to get one in time to come =D

One can never know how deep and bad one could get hurt from a brokern relationship..
some jux lets it go like nothin ever happened.. while others drags on about it.. bringing the hurt and sad memories with them everywhr they go..

This not jux affects their mood.. but also affects the others if they see the person being emo and gloomy all the time.. being not able to cheer up.. everyone would be putting on their sad faces as well and the happy atmosphere will be gone..

Im tired already.. will type some other stuffs the next time..

last thing.. Things does not always looks as peaceful as it is one the surface.. cause things maybe stirring up within and a chaos might be brought about the next moment without even u knowing it..

Think before u do, think before u say.. cause words that is spokern, cannot be collected back again..

God Bless