haiz... 5:40pm.. 21st January 2010.

Name: Boris
Age: 18
Race: Chinese

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Log 1:
Position: School
Sector: Level 6 lab
Situation: FARKING SIAN

Hello thr. Its been about 21days since sch reopened.. Ever since things have not been goin well. *sigh* Guess things are really goin amock in my life. Not to say bad, but sad things one after another. Nothing seems to fit into my life.

Really troubled these days. Nothing haf been more stressful to me than relationship and Work. i've never felt more alone since the last time i got boycott from class.. even sch. but it i didnt feel so bad then.

I found out, as we grow older.. the hunger for companionship grows. I find that i really need someone to hold and cry on, that special someone. Though its not for me to choose, but all that i haf pulled myself into only leave me in disappointment.

Love as they say, are hard to find. But to find that special some1 that love u back, is even harder. I for one haf learnt that nomatter how good u can be to a person u fancy, u can nv get her. cause thrs always some1 that alrdy rest in her heart.

Knowing the truth that u can never get her is pain, But refusing to let her out of ur mind proves to be more fatal. Which eventually lands me in the state of depression, hurt and moodless.

Its ok if it only happen for once, twice.. but for someone to fall for everyone of them that he knows will never be together wif is like suffering repeated strikes to the heart consistantly everyday and nite.

he Only wished for one of them to know and accept him, but fear haf led him to be silent and bear the pain. Cause he will feel Like a Damn retard and ashamed of facing her if he got rejected by her.

Time passed haf gradually made the growth more pain and emotionless..

Guess that this is jux the begining of the impending doom.

Times up, i gotta go.

This is Boris.. Signing out..

*beep*

Status: Logged Out At 5:57pm

*Shutsdown*